1st January 2011
The new starting has begin same as my life. I'm going to be a new man, new attitude, new ethic. Celebrating the event at ICT Shah Alam, not big different compared to previous year. Fireworks, hang around and go home. The sadness December has end. The 2011 wishes? I want to be bad guy, tip top bad guy so that nobody will not take advantage on me. This year I'll fulfill all my dream. People do bad to me, I'll counter 200% to him/her. I don't care anymore. Nowadays, both girl and boy just the same. This all happened cos of u, u responsible of what will happen to me in future. U did this!!! I dunno y, when I see ur face at ICT, I feel so cool, I lost all the bad feel, all the pain, all the temper...but the reality is, u fuck me up girl, u dump me. U said u know him better? He knew u better? Fuck off, dat man is a fucking sweettalker. He want ur body, after he got it, he leave u just like shit. Damn!!! He is hypocrite...Fucking hypocrite. He never feel how hard to date u, how the feel of taking u out from ur house in Klang. How to keep u safe all the time. How to date u without kantoi. How hard to find money to ask for ur hands, dats y i worked in Saudi. How hard to stay in ward and my gf not visiting me. How hard to handle Nazri. How hard to control ur sociality. How hard to check ur handphone (then u said aku abaikan kau). How hard I want to keep u at my side.
Its fuck. Its damn fuck to talk about this anymore, cos y? Because u still force urself to be with him. Its alright then, but I told u not to ride his car and not contact him too much. Just remember dat orders....
Damn!!!!!! 143....
