2nd January 2011
"Hepi besday" received at 1.30 am. Dunno whether she send it to the wrong number or to me, cos there's no name at the end of the statement. That fucker also have the same birth date wit me. I replied it, and there's no reply, dats y I guess she send the wrong mcj to the wrong guy. Celebrating it alone, watching "Damping Malam", but she's always in my mind, I just keep looking to the seat we book at our last muvi.
Feel damn good receiving dat "hepi besday", suddenly her smile and everything good fucking nice memories flashing back in my modulaoblongata. Stopping by at the highway, the tears come out, y it end like dis. Damn fuck. Y I keep thinking about her, y I keep take care about her, y I keep calling her. Y I crying for this relationship. WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!. Maybe u can forget all our memories, I said MAYBE!!!
But for me, its damn fucking hard!!! Wherever I go, I always see u. Cinema, Mall, restaurant and bla..bla...How can I forget u.!!!..
But u choose dis way, and say sorry. Now at 28 yr old, I've decided to be sumone bad, cos I know u hate bad guy. I'm sorry if I neglecting u, but for real...I'm not, sayang. U can fix it, but u refuse to do so. Its ok then, coz I'll work out sumting, U're priceless to me, I can't hate U. Dats for real. I dunno the real thing happen between U and Nazri, but from wat I know, I'm get U by proper way, not "RAMPAS". The only thing I can imagine is dat U want a life of a student. Normal student couple, U can go anywhere together, no commitment to work, no problem, can hv a study group together, lunch together, dinner together, everything that U that I FAILED to give to U!!!!
Last time U mcj me that "cian a.z". Why cian to him, then no explaination. Then MAYBE U will blame in the future. I've tried hanging out and date other girl, but what happen? I told her about U, the way U are, ur character and everything. Damn..how U can say dat I'll forget U in short time. Fuck it....
Still feel bad with wat happened...
