The stalker;
I'm not feeling what u feel. The time i kick u out, is becoz u can't accept my job which require me to travel. I said that to u. And even u saying u're stalker, I don't care, since u failed to comply with my requirement.
So, please be matured...and understand that we not meant together...
P/S : not for FSI....tq
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Friday, December 9, 2011
9 Disember 2010
Salam semua
Lame aku x update bende ni...tapi arini aku update pasal arini 9 disember 2011.
Ape ade ngn 9 dis? tarikh ini..x perlu aku cerite...hanye die yang taw..
Pada tarikh ini aku terjatuh, hanya kegelapan yg aku nmpk ketika itu. Hanya kegagalan...macam satu kemusnahan secara total terhadap diri aku sendiri. Tewas nye aku pada perasaan sendiri, pada kekcewaan yang telah dihadiahkan oleh insan yang sgt aku sayangi.
Setiap hari aku harap semua ini mimpi, tapi malangnye ia satu realiti. Segala usaha, kasih syg aku, bagaikan tidak bermakna pada dia. Kerap kali die katekan, cintanya ada tulus, tapi mengapa ini semua berlaku?
Ketika lafaz itu diucapkan oleh dia. Ia seperti kuasa elektrik 415V melalui sistem badan aku ni macam x percaya hubungan yang aku pertahankan, yang aku sayang, yang aku banggekan selama ini, hancur bile die ke Sg petani untuk menimba ilmu.
Aku kembali ke perangai lame, semua keranamu. 9 Disember 2011, cukup setahun aku ditinggalkan, bagaikan kulit pisang, dicampak camtu jek. Hehehe...mungkin kau bole atau mudah jatuh cinta @ syg pada org, tapi bukan aku. Cukup susah aku nak syg org tak tentu pasal. Setahun...setahun berlalu, tiada gadis menggantikan kau di hati aku.
Kerana 9 Disember 2010, aku hampir kehilangan kerja, aku hampir hilang ape aku simpan, aku hampir hilang maruah diri, hampir gagal segalanya....dan kau?..kau kat mana?...Kau memadu kasih kan?..bercinta penuh bahagia tatkala aku terseksa....ini ke kau maksudkan ngn perangai aku yang selfish? Atau kau yg selfish? Tak sedar? Atau kau dah jadi bodoh?
Pada akar nye, kau seorang yang curang, itu x akan berubah, dan kau taw kau seorang yang curang, dan kau taw pilihan kau kali ini tidak sebaik mana...
Dan paling penting, kau taw...tahap mana kasih aku pada kau skrg...
Tapi syg, kau teringin nak jadi robin hood, nak tolong semua org, nak puaskan ati semua org....so..jadi la robin hood...
Pnh satu ketika kau kate, aku x pertahankan hubungan kite, tak usaha nak selamat percintaan itu. Kau bodoh ke, atau byk isap dadah? Yang aku nak turun sg petani tu ape, yang aku ajak die jumpe tu ape? yang aku bawak ko sampai genting tu ape? sume aku dah buat, sampai aku tye kau, tul ke kau nak bla? tul ke syg kau kat aku tinggal 10%....Semua aku dah buat, tapi kau, nak jugak kat budak tu....kau yang ckp, aku ley pakse kau putus, tapi aku x ley pakse kau syg aku...hahahaa...buat apa aku amik tubuh kau, klw ati kau aku tak dapat (tapi dpt body pun ok, hihiihihi).
Saat ini, aku tak taw nak tulis, aku kecewa sgt, kau sanggup tipu cinta aku, tpi x pe, kau bahagia, aku suke, biar je aku derita...aku taw, mmg 2011, taun aku x bercinta...
Aku sgt bz skarg,Syg.....aku sedih dan rindu mase kiter bersama, mungkin kau dah lupekan sume itu, tapi, tidak pada aku, saat aku jumpe kau setiap hari mase keja SPM, mase aku setia tunggu kau balik cuti sem, saat kite g taman pas kau alik keje kedai sebelah padini tu, joging sama2...hehehe...aku rindu...bile rindu, aku akan lalu kat tmpt2 kite lepak dulu yunk....
Tapi, kau dah lupe kan aku, hanya aku je..yang masih idup dlm memori lama...Thanks sbb pnah syg sgt pada aku...smpai aku tertipu ngn gerak lagak itu...
Tapi aku akan anggap cinta kau itu benar...aku taw kau mmg syg pada aku....
Terima kasih....
Friday, September 30, 2011
Updating
Hallo everyone...cewahh..cam ramai follower plak kan?
Poyo je lebih...
Ni wa baru je kol wa pye bekas? Waa...byk langsi..itu hari lu cari wa kan? Lu cari wa bile lu sakit, kan? Lu taw wa byk syg sama lu, itu mlm wa maw turun, nasib baik lu x bgi la.
Hahhaa....xpa...lu pilih, lu tanggung, skrg lu taw, mane lagi terbaik. Lu maw budak2, lu ikut la perangai budak2, lu nak melingkup ke, lu nak tido umah sapa2 ke, itu lu pilih, lu tanggung. Ada masa lu nak luah kat wa, lu citer saja. Ok.
Skang wa mmg xda nk jage ati sapa2 dah, sape respek wa, jage ati wa, hormat sama wa. Wa akan balas sama baik, sama cantik. Tapi, klaw org bangsat same wa, cari pasal same wa....wa pun bangsat balik pada org tu. Ok....fair n square la kan?
Sapa suke terima saje, x suke....bole berambus...wa x kisah pon....pegi mampus lu org.
Especially untuk bos wa, mmg x ley pakai, Lu nasib cantik aje, sbb lu melayu + umor tua...klw mude....wa tak taw la cane...Engineer baru pun same, lu besar2 pon lu x ley capai level wa la, lu kipas kuat bole la. Lu ingt, masuk mane2 tempat mesti bawak akal, jgn bawak pisau, nati terpotong leher sendiri. SHO wa, itu ari wa sudah sound same lu kan? So lu mesti paham, lu jgn ingat lu perempuan, wa x bole "FUCK" sama lu. Skang pompuan laki wa x kisah pon. Wa x puas ati, wa sound, lu melawan wa kaki kan je.
Ini aje update wa ade untuk lu fatin, tu la, nak update sgt, cite sume x cantik, wa dmm psal semingu tido 2 - 3 jam je + mkn x teratur. Lu jage diri fatin. Wa x mo ckp, tapi wa rindu kat lu, wa rindu nk plok lu, wa rindu nak pegang tgn lu. Tapi wa kene ingt, lu sudah buang wa. Wa kene ingt lu sudah ikut laki balik rumah, wa syg lu. Lu ade papehal...lu roje je wa. Wa sentiasa backup lu punye blkng...:)
Poyo je lebih...
Ni wa baru je kol wa pye bekas? Waa...byk langsi..itu hari lu cari wa kan? Lu cari wa bile lu sakit, kan? Lu taw wa byk syg sama lu, itu mlm wa maw turun, nasib baik lu x bgi la.
Hahhaa....xpa...lu pilih, lu tanggung, skrg lu taw, mane lagi terbaik. Lu maw budak2, lu ikut la perangai budak2, lu nak melingkup ke, lu nak tido umah sapa2 ke, itu lu pilih, lu tanggung. Ada masa lu nak luah kat wa, lu citer saja. Ok.
Skang wa mmg xda nk jage ati sapa2 dah, sape respek wa, jage ati wa, hormat sama wa. Wa akan balas sama baik, sama cantik. Tapi, klaw org bangsat same wa, cari pasal same wa....wa pun bangsat balik pada org tu. Ok....fair n square la kan?
Sapa suke terima saje, x suke....bole berambus...wa x kisah pon....pegi mampus lu org.
Especially untuk bos wa, mmg x ley pakai, Lu nasib cantik aje, sbb lu melayu + umor tua...klw mude....wa tak taw la cane...Engineer baru pun same, lu besar2 pon lu x ley capai level wa la, lu kipas kuat bole la. Lu ingt, masuk mane2 tempat mesti bawak akal, jgn bawak pisau, nati terpotong leher sendiri. SHO wa, itu ari wa sudah sound same lu kan? So lu mesti paham, lu jgn ingat lu perempuan, wa x bole "FUCK" sama lu. Skang pompuan laki wa x kisah pon. Wa x puas ati, wa sound, lu melawan wa kaki kan je.
Ini aje update wa ade untuk lu fatin, tu la, nak update sgt, cite sume x cantik, wa dmm psal semingu tido 2 - 3 jam je + mkn x teratur. Lu jage diri fatin. Wa x mo ckp, tapi wa rindu kat lu, wa rindu nk plok lu, wa rindu nak pegang tgn lu. Tapi wa kene ingt, lu sudah buang wa. Wa kene ingt lu sudah ikut laki balik rumah, wa syg lu. Lu ade papehal...lu roje je wa. Wa sentiasa backup lu punye blkng...:)
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
HUtan
Salam..
Just arrive from Pahang, Hutan Pahang. Trying to find sumting, sumting dat can make me forget about u. Hahaha...stupid me coz put all of my lurve to u. Haahaha...its ok, we still fren. I just waiting u to engage wit him, but I believe, it wont happen.
Meet Mazidul Akmal Sidek, very gud in reading people character. Not sure whether it just coincidence or real. The point is, he predict me well. He said I'm a loving person, even I'm look 'garang' and 'selekeh'. Hahahaa...I just smiling to myself, there's truth about what he said. Yeah..maybe. And he said, who's be my girl, is a lucky girl, coz I'm a loving person. U got me once time ago.
I just telling u, how much I love u. Hehehe....even its alreadi 5 months. Huhuhu..how's ur paper? Is it gud? Long time I didnt heard anything from u.
Just to said, missing u. Miss to do everything with u. The day I enter the "Hutan Pahang", I want to mcj u, but, maybe u wont read it at all. Afraid he's holding ur hp. Coz, I always mcj U if I did sumting dangerous that related to life. The different is, I have no body to mcj anymore. 3 days survivor in the jungle, make me little bit ok.
If wanna hit me, just hit me, I'm always there 4 u.
Just arrive from Pahang, Hutan Pahang. Trying to find sumting, sumting dat can make me forget about u. Hahaha...stupid me coz put all of my lurve to u. Haahaha...its ok, we still fren. I just waiting u to engage wit him, but I believe, it wont happen.
Meet Mazidul Akmal Sidek, very gud in reading people character. Not sure whether it just coincidence or real. The point is, he predict me well. He said I'm a loving person, even I'm look 'garang' and 'selekeh'. Hahahaa...I just smiling to myself, there's truth about what he said. Yeah..maybe. And he said, who's be my girl, is a lucky girl, coz I'm a loving person. U got me once time ago.
I just telling u, how much I love u. Hehehe....even its alreadi 5 months. Huhuhu..how's ur paper? Is it gud? Long time I didnt heard anything from u.
Just to said, missing u. Miss to do everything with u. The day I enter the "Hutan Pahang", I want to mcj u, but, maybe u wont read it at all. Afraid he's holding ur hp. Coz, I always mcj U if I did sumting dangerous that related to life. The different is, I have no body to mcj anymore. 3 days survivor in the jungle, make me little bit ok.
If wanna hit me, just hit me, I'm always there 4 u.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
1.38 In the morning
Salam
Call at 1.38 in the morning, fuck damn shit, I'm too sleepy and injured, a waste, should I can talk to her. Damn, why I'm so sleepy? Oh god, can't u give a chance...
Explaining to ***, *** said sorry for disturbing me dat night. For ur information, u never disturb me in any situation. Its ok if u dun wan to talk to me, I know, I just worried if U in trouble, and call me for help or anything. Hope U listen to my voicemail. I put it for u, its my voice. The boy U L*** before. If u got sumting, or need to talk to me, just call...no problem.
My life now is a mess. Lucky I can reply u today, almost got accident at the speed 150km/h dis morning. Haahaha...why I said 150km/h, its becoz, everyday my ride to office, and go back home, my bike speed, never below 150km/h. A mistake means death, however, u'll never come to my dead day. Kahkahkahkah...Why I don care, coz I lose u, now I dun care anything.
U not wish me for the game, maybe u forgot, btw, who am I for u to remember. Hahaha....I received one yellow card coz of fighting inside the court. One direct warning. Plus one of opposition player, loose his teeth, coz been "siku" by me. Hahaha...who care, its football....dats how its played. This game not so happening for me, coz I've nobody to celebrate with. The time u were wit me, I feel so energetic, I feel so gud...and I thing I played so gud and well. Maybe, u feel not comfortable, coz u said before, "awk paling kecik lam court" hahha...embarrassed ea...malu kot..hahhaha..watever la, now ur bf tinggi, panjang, lebar ntah ape lancau lagi tah.
Hope U did well in your exam, be a success girl. U fail my luv to u, so then please success in ur life. When u studying there, it cost our love, so, let it be worth it. U must have ur diploma coz its our LOVE VALUE. Our love burn in UiTM Sg petani. Will us be together again, only god knows. Will I luv sumone else like U. The answer after 4 moth almost 5..is.....NO.
Call at 1.38 in the morning, fuck damn shit, I'm too sleepy and injured, a waste, should I can talk to her. Damn, why I'm so sleepy? Oh god, can't u give a chance...
Explaining to ***, *** said sorry for disturbing me dat night. For ur information, u never disturb me in any situation. Its ok if u dun wan to talk to me, I know, I just worried if U in trouble, and call me for help or anything. Hope U listen to my voicemail. I put it for u, its my voice. The boy U L*** before. If u got sumting, or need to talk to me, just call...no problem.
My life now is a mess. Lucky I can reply u today, almost got accident at the speed 150km/h dis morning. Haahaha...why I said 150km/h, its becoz, everyday my ride to office, and go back home, my bike speed, never below 150km/h. A mistake means death, however, u'll never come to my dead day. Kahkahkahkah...Why I don care, coz I lose u, now I dun care anything.
U not wish me for the game, maybe u forgot, btw, who am I for u to remember. Hahaha....I received one yellow card coz of fighting inside the court. One direct warning. Plus one of opposition player, loose his teeth, coz been "siku" by me. Hahaha...who care, its football....dats how its played. This game not so happening for me, coz I've nobody to celebrate with. The time u were wit me, I feel so energetic, I feel so gud...and I thing I played so gud and well. Maybe, u feel not comfortable, coz u said before, "awk paling kecik lam court" hahha...embarrassed ea...malu kot..hahhaha..watever la, now ur bf tinggi, panjang, lebar ntah ape lancau lagi tah.
Hope U did well in your exam, be a success girl. U fail my luv to u, so then please success in ur life. When u studying there, it cost our love, so, let it be worth it. U must have ur diploma coz its our LOVE VALUE. Our love burn in UiTM Sg petani. Will us be together again, only god knows. Will I luv sumone else like U. The answer after 4 moth almost 5..is.....NO.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Sebuah cerita sahaja
Bukan sedikit lelaki yang kahwin lambat hari ini. Agaknya mengapa? Saya ingin berikan suatu contoh.
Katakanlah anda adalah seorang lelaki berumur 23 tahun yang baru tamat pengajian dan bekerja sebagai seorang pegawai.
Gaji bulanan adalah RM 2000 dan anda tidak mempunyai simpanan di dalam bank.
Setiap bulan, katakanlah perbelanjaan makanan, pengangkutan, bil-bil, sewa rumah dan perbelanjaan lain adalah RM 1200.
Kemudian, sebagai anak yang baik, anda mengirimkan wang ke kampung sebanyak RM 300. Maka baki bulanan adalah RM 500.
Berbekalkan disiplin dalam menyimpan duit untuk masa depan, mungkin anda dapat menyimpan duit sebanyak RM 5000 setahun.
Setahun berlalu, anda berumur 24 tahun. Dengan izin Allah, anda berkenalan dengan seorang gadis impian.
Masing-masing telah merancang untuk berkahwin dalam masa setahun atau dua tahun lagi.
Maka, anda berazam untuk menyediakan kemudahan asas seperti rumah dan kereta sebelum berkahwin.
Anda pun bekerja keras dan mendapat kenaikan gaji sebanyak 10%.
Dibesarkan dengan famili yang sungguh baik, anda menjadi seorang yang 'gentlemen'.
Semua perbelanjaan untuk 'dating', hadiah, bunga dan seumpamanya sudah pun disediakan awal-awal. 10% telah pun diperuntukkan untuk si dia.
Seperti tahun sebelumnya, setelah bersusah payah makan mee segera untuk berjimat, anda berjaya mengekalkan RM 5000 sebagai simpanan tahunan.
Malah, syarikat pula memberikan bonus sebanyak 2 bulan pada tahun tersebut. Maka bertambah lagi RM 4000 dalam simpanan. Kini anda memiliki RM 14,000 dalam simpanan bank.
Sudah tiba masanya untuk membeli kereta. Maka anda membayar RM8000 sebagai bayaran permulaan untuk kereta baru yang berharga RM 40,000.
Kini simpanan bersih anda hanya tinggal RM 6000.
Tahun berikutnya, ketika berumur 25 tahun, anda perlu membayar pinjaman kereta setiap bulan. Hal ini bermakna, simpanan bulanan hanya tinggal RM 400 sebulan.
Bonus pula tidak diberi oleh syarikat kerana prestasi syarikat kurang baik pada tahun itu. Maka, jumlah simpanan semasa hujung tahun adalah RM 11,000 sahaja.
Bertunang
Akhirnya anda membuat keputusan untuk bertunang dengan gadis impian. Dia gembira dan bersetuju.
Maka, RM 1500 dibelanjakan untuk cincin emas dan hantaran. Simpanan kini hanya tinggal RM 9500.
Tahun seterusnya, anda berumur 26 tahun. Alhamdulillah, anda diberi kenaikan pangkat. Gaji anda sekarang RM3000.
"Ini berita baik! Aku nak menamatkan zaman bujang tahun ni!" Anda bersorak girang.
Pada suatu hari, anda mengambil cuti separuh hari untuk berbincang dengan tunang.
Anda : "Berape eh hantaran kahwin kita?"
Tunang : "Berapa-berapa yang you sanggup."
Anda : "RM 5000, okay?"
Tunang : "I okay je. Tapi my mom tu. Dia kata grad oversea macam I ni mane boleh letak rendah-rendah. Paling kurang RM10,000 tau!"
Sikit lagi anda nak pengsan mendengar jawapan bakal isteri anda.
"Mana aku nak dapat duit lebih?"
Kerja Lebih Kuat
Oleh kerana anda terlalu sayangkan dia, anda bekerja dengan lebih kuat sehingga dianugerahkan pekerja cemerlang. Malah, anda menambahkan pendapatan melalui perniagaan jualan langsung secara kecil-kecilan.
Akhirnya dapat la anda simpan RM20,000 pada tahun tersebut.
Suatu pencapaian yang amat membanggakan!
Sekarang umur anda sudah 27 tahun. Duit hantaran dah cukup. Tetapi, mak pula cakap pesan :
"Anak mak nak kawin ni mesti la buat grand-grand. Kita sewa khemah besar-besar, jemput penyanyi ke artis ke sorang dua datang buat persembahan. Lauk pauk kita guna katering je la ya? RM 10 je sekepala. Baju kawin ko, kita sewa yg cantik-cantik dan mahal-mahal sikit. Kita jemput dalam 1000 orang. Set!"
Pengiraan pantas dijalankan :
1000 orang x RM 10 = RM10,000.
Penyanyi, khemah, kad kahwin dan baju = RM 5000.
"Alamak, dah RM 15,000! Belum cincin kahwin lagi! Adoi!" Getus hati anda.
Anda 'slow talk' dengan mak anda :
"Mak, nak buat apa membazir duit ni?"
"Apa pulak membazirnya? Kau kawin sekali je seumur hidup. Biarlah buat betul-betul."
"Tapi mak..?"
"Dahlah, kau jangan nak buat malu mak. Cik Tipah jiran kita tu buat kenduri kat hotel siap Dato', Datin, Tan Sri, Puan Sri datang. Mana la mak nak letak muka mak kalau kita buat kenduri kecik-kecik?"
Akhirnya..
Setelah bersusah payah, akhirnya anda berkahwin juga. Fuh! Seronok dan bersyukur habis.
Tetapi, apakan daya, jodoh kamu berdua tidak panjang. Anda berhutang keliling pinggang dan kadar 'interest' makin tinggi. Anda dah tak mampu nak bayar.
Isteri kesayangan dah letih kalau anda asyik nak minta duit. Dia tuduh anda tak bertanggungjawap, tak reti bagi nafkah dan macam-macam lagi.
Akhirnya? Bercerai..
Masalah yang membuahkan masalah. Kadang-kadang kita pelik kenapa perkahwinan sentiasa gagal di negara kita.
Contoh yang saya huraikan di atas adalah salah satu contoh kasar yang boleh dilihat, kenapa orang kita kahwin lambat atau susah nak kahwin.
Punca masalah:
Pada pandangan saya, budaya kita yang tak kena tempat. Banyak perkara dalam budaya kita yang tidak masuk akal dan kadangkala meyusahkan diri sendiri.
Budaya yang berakar umbi ini menyebabkan ramai orang takut nak berkahwin, dengan alasan mereka tidak mampu walaupun secara fizikal dan mentalnya mereka sebenarnya mampu.
Sedikit pemerhatian dan penyelidikan yang saya lakukan:
01.Perkahwinan perlu dilakukan secara bersederhana.Motif kahwin kan nak menjamu saudara-mara dan rakan-rakan? Jadi, makanan sahaja lah yang perlu diambil kira.
Tak perlu nak membazir duit untuk perkara lain seperti pelamin.
Biasanya, pelamin yang biasa sahaja pun dah berharga RM 1500. Itu baru pelamin. Belum lagi hiasan ini dan hiasan itu.
02."Harga" seseorang wanita diukur dari tahap pendidikan beliau dan bukan diukur dari pengetahuan agama seperti yang di sarankan oleh Islam.
Apabila wang hantaran diletakkan terlalu tinggi, perkahwinan terpaksa dibatalkan atau ditangguhkan. Sedangkan akad nikah itu lebih penting dari wang hantaran.
03.Perkahwinan sepatutnya adalah perkara yang paling mudah dan cepat, tetapi kini ia telah menjadi beban.
Zaman kini, perkahwinan sangat rumit dan rata-ratanya takut untuk berkahwin.
Semasa saya di Sydney, saya lihat beberapa rakan muslim kita yang berkahwin hanya di masjid.
Kemudian ada kenduri kecil yang dijalankan di masjid.
Para jemputan terdiri dari jemmah masjid, kawan-kawan dan saudara terdekat.
Perkara yang perlu difokuskan adalah kehidupan selepas berkahwin, bukannya majlis perkahwinan.
Majlis itu hanyalah pintu ke gerbang perkahwinan.
Namun hakikatnya kini seolah-olah kita menghiasi pintu rumah kita cantik bagai nak rak, tetapi di dalam rumah, kosong, gelap dan tidak menarik?
...and the pressure is on men...
Katakanlah anda adalah seorang lelaki berumur 23 tahun yang baru tamat pengajian dan bekerja sebagai seorang pegawai.
Gaji bulanan adalah RM 2000 dan anda tidak mempunyai simpanan di dalam bank.
Setiap bulan, katakanlah perbelanjaan makanan, pengangkutan, bil-bil, sewa rumah dan perbelanjaan lain adalah RM 1200.
Kemudian, sebagai anak yang baik, anda mengirimkan wang ke kampung sebanyak RM 300. Maka baki bulanan adalah RM 500.
Berbekalkan disiplin dalam menyimpan duit untuk masa depan, mungkin anda dapat menyimpan duit sebanyak RM 5000 setahun.
Setahun berlalu, anda berumur 24 tahun. Dengan izin Allah, anda berkenalan dengan seorang gadis impian.
Masing-masing telah merancang untuk berkahwin dalam masa setahun atau dua tahun lagi.
Maka, anda berazam untuk menyediakan kemudahan asas seperti rumah dan kereta sebelum berkahwin.
Anda pun bekerja keras dan mendapat kenaikan gaji sebanyak 10%.
Dibesarkan dengan famili yang sungguh baik, anda menjadi seorang yang 'gentlemen'.
Semua perbelanjaan untuk 'dating', hadiah, bunga dan seumpamanya sudah pun disediakan awal-awal. 10% telah pun diperuntukkan untuk si dia.
Seperti tahun sebelumnya, setelah bersusah payah makan mee segera untuk berjimat, anda berjaya mengekalkan RM 5000 sebagai simpanan tahunan.
Malah, syarikat pula memberikan bonus sebanyak 2 bulan pada tahun tersebut. Maka bertambah lagi RM 4000 dalam simpanan. Kini anda memiliki RM 14,000 dalam simpanan bank.
Sudah tiba masanya untuk membeli kereta. Maka anda membayar RM8000 sebagai bayaran permulaan untuk kereta baru yang berharga RM 40,000.
Kini simpanan bersih anda hanya tinggal RM 6000.
Tahun berikutnya, ketika berumur 25 tahun, anda perlu membayar pinjaman kereta setiap bulan. Hal ini bermakna, simpanan bulanan hanya tinggal RM 400 sebulan.
Bonus pula tidak diberi oleh syarikat kerana prestasi syarikat kurang baik pada tahun itu. Maka, jumlah simpanan semasa hujung tahun adalah RM 11,000 sahaja.
Bertunang
Akhirnya anda membuat keputusan untuk bertunang dengan gadis impian. Dia gembira dan bersetuju.
Maka, RM 1500 dibelanjakan untuk cincin emas dan hantaran. Simpanan kini hanya tinggal RM 9500.
Tahun seterusnya, anda berumur 26 tahun. Alhamdulillah, anda diberi kenaikan pangkat. Gaji anda sekarang RM3000.
"Ini berita baik! Aku nak menamatkan zaman bujang tahun ni!" Anda bersorak girang.
Pada suatu hari, anda mengambil cuti separuh hari untuk berbincang dengan tunang.
Anda : "Berape eh hantaran kahwin kita?"
Tunang : "Berapa-berapa yang you sanggup."
Anda : "RM 5000, okay?"
Tunang : "I okay je. Tapi my mom tu. Dia kata grad oversea macam I ni mane boleh letak rendah-rendah. Paling kurang RM10,000 tau!"
Sikit lagi anda nak pengsan mendengar jawapan bakal isteri anda.
"Mana aku nak dapat duit lebih?"
Kerja Lebih Kuat
Oleh kerana anda terlalu sayangkan dia, anda bekerja dengan lebih kuat sehingga dianugerahkan pekerja cemerlang. Malah, anda menambahkan pendapatan melalui perniagaan jualan langsung secara kecil-kecilan.
Akhirnya dapat la anda simpan RM20,000 pada tahun tersebut.
Suatu pencapaian yang amat membanggakan!
Sekarang umur anda sudah 27 tahun. Duit hantaran dah cukup. Tetapi, mak pula cakap pesan :
"Anak mak nak kawin ni mesti la buat grand-grand. Kita sewa khemah besar-besar, jemput penyanyi ke artis ke sorang dua datang buat persembahan. Lauk pauk kita guna katering je la ya? RM 10 je sekepala. Baju kawin ko, kita sewa yg cantik-cantik dan mahal-mahal sikit. Kita jemput dalam 1000 orang. Set!"
Pengiraan pantas dijalankan :
1000 orang x RM 10 = RM10,000.
Penyanyi, khemah, kad kahwin dan baju = RM 5000.
"Alamak, dah RM 15,000! Belum cincin kahwin lagi! Adoi!" Getus hati anda.
Anda 'slow talk' dengan mak anda :
"Mak, nak buat apa membazir duit ni?"
"Apa pulak membazirnya? Kau kawin sekali je seumur hidup. Biarlah buat betul-betul."
"Tapi mak..?"
"Dahlah, kau jangan nak buat malu mak. Cik Tipah jiran kita tu buat kenduri kat hotel siap Dato', Datin, Tan Sri, Puan Sri datang. Mana la mak nak letak muka mak kalau kita buat kenduri kecik-kecik?"
Akhirnya..
Setelah bersusah payah, akhirnya anda berkahwin juga. Fuh! Seronok dan bersyukur habis.
Tetapi, apakan daya, jodoh kamu berdua tidak panjang. Anda berhutang keliling pinggang dan kadar 'interest' makin tinggi. Anda dah tak mampu nak bayar.
Isteri kesayangan dah letih kalau anda asyik nak minta duit. Dia tuduh anda tak bertanggungjawap, tak reti bagi nafkah dan macam-macam lagi.
Akhirnya? Bercerai..
Masalah yang membuahkan masalah. Kadang-kadang kita pelik kenapa perkahwinan sentiasa gagal di negara kita.
Contoh yang saya huraikan di atas adalah salah satu contoh kasar yang boleh dilihat, kenapa orang kita kahwin lambat atau susah nak kahwin.
Punca masalah:
Pada pandangan saya, budaya kita yang tak kena tempat. Banyak perkara dalam budaya kita yang tidak masuk akal dan kadangkala meyusahkan diri sendiri.
Budaya yang berakar umbi ini menyebabkan ramai orang takut nak berkahwin, dengan alasan mereka tidak mampu walaupun secara fizikal dan mentalnya mereka sebenarnya mampu.
Sedikit pemerhatian dan penyelidikan yang saya lakukan:
01.Perkahwinan perlu dilakukan secara bersederhana.Motif kahwin kan nak menjamu saudara-mara dan rakan-rakan? Jadi, makanan sahaja lah yang perlu diambil kira.
Tak perlu nak membazir duit untuk perkara lain seperti pelamin.
Biasanya, pelamin yang biasa sahaja pun dah berharga RM 1500. Itu baru pelamin. Belum lagi hiasan ini dan hiasan itu.
02."Harga" seseorang wanita diukur dari tahap pendidikan beliau dan bukan diukur dari pengetahuan agama seperti yang di sarankan oleh Islam.
Apabila wang hantaran diletakkan terlalu tinggi, perkahwinan terpaksa dibatalkan atau ditangguhkan. Sedangkan akad nikah itu lebih penting dari wang hantaran.
03.Perkahwinan sepatutnya adalah perkara yang paling mudah dan cepat, tetapi kini ia telah menjadi beban.
Zaman kini, perkahwinan sangat rumit dan rata-ratanya takut untuk berkahwin.
Semasa saya di Sydney, saya lihat beberapa rakan muslim kita yang berkahwin hanya di masjid.
Kemudian ada kenduri kecil yang dijalankan di masjid.
Para jemputan terdiri dari jemmah masjid, kawan-kawan dan saudara terdekat.
Perkara yang perlu difokuskan adalah kehidupan selepas berkahwin, bukannya majlis perkahwinan.
Majlis itu hanyalah pintu ke gerbang perkahwinan.
Namun hakikatnya kini seolah-olah kita menghiasi pintu rumah kita cantik bagai nak rak, tetapi di dalam rumah, kosong, gelap dan tidak menarik?
...and the pressure is on men...
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Dead rose
Salam.
The dead rose, wat is that mean. Ur love? Why that fucking boy delete his FB.? I'll trace him. This thing still not finish..hahahaha..beware...let him aware..hahaha..
bla..bla..bla....klw cmpat , u dpt bace la....
The dead rose, wat is that mean. Ur love? Why that fucking boy delete his FB.? I'll trace him. This thing still not finish..hahahaha..beware...let him aware..hahaha..
bla..bla..bla....klw cmpat , u dpt bace la....
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
The Exam for u. The future of urs. Have a gud paper.
Salam
Calling sc3-ASH. Yeah...How's the paper, ur test today..rite? Hope its gud n u doing well.
Tomolo, the sem has reached it bottom line. The paper will start tomoro,. How's ur preparation? I believe U already make a gud preparation for the paper. Remember, even U dun ask to study, but believe in me, its gud for ur future. Make sure U success, and graduate and have a bright future. This course, this "UiTM Sg Petani" has cost us our relationship. It cost our love, my priceless luv. So, the diploma of "I.M" must be in ur hand. It is a must, cos its cost u and me alot!!
Good luck for paper tomolo, and please do well. I'll wish U.
Take care my dear......Good Luck..^^
Calling sc3-ASH. Yeah...How's the paper, ur test today..rite? Hope its gud n u doing well.
Tomolo, the sem has reached it bottom line. The paper will start tomoro,. How's ur preparation? I believe U already make a gud preparation for the paper. Remember, even U dun ask to study, but believe in me, its gud for ur future. Make sure U success, and graduate and have a bright future. This course, this "UiTM Sg Petani" has cost us our relationship. It cost our love, my priceless luv. So, the diploma of "I.M" must be in ur hand. It is a must, cos its cost u and me alot!!
Good luck for paper tomolo, and please do well. I'll wish U.
Take care my dear......Good Luck..^^
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Sudah buang....
Salam
The only thing u left in my car. I threw it away,u know the things? It is the last bfast u feed me, the last water u give me. The 'roti kacang" and the 100 plus. We bought it when we pit stop at SHELL near TTDI dear. On our way to the place U breaak all ur promise and the day U slash my heart. Hehhehee.... Hard for me to throw it away, but, the person dat washing my car threw it away in front of my eyes. I kept the rubbish for 4 months++. The tear like to drop off my eyes, I just try to hold it. Damn..I still feel sumting for U,The love, Its gone 4 u, not 4 me..:p.
The important things is, I still remember about ***, and the jcm last nite, make me feel good. And I've to throw the rubbish away. Cos it can cause disease.
Last nite I suddenly remembered the situtation U almost "hilang". Remembered AISHAH, fren of Zaly. Dat nite I went for a drink with zaly and his two colleagues, U refuse to join. I knew why, It cant be wrote down here. Not gud. By the time I finish the "lepak" wit Zaly, when I reach my car, the car was lock. And U are not there!!!!. Damn, where r u, the only things in my mind, maybe sumone kidnapped u. Damn, like battle in a war, I look for zaly and asking him whether he saw u or not. By the time of my " gelbah + kelam kabut" I saw u standing in front of the "Mamak". Oh god, thanks to u. Dunno what will happen, if I cant find u dat nite. And there's sumting U said to me,about my reaction when U enter my car. Its just a memory flashback, when I drove thru that scene, last nite.
Thats my suffer, whereever I go, the memories will flashing back, dats y I said, I'm suffering, and hard for me to forget U. Sorry, this story noting to do wit anybody, it just a story of "ASH".
Hehheheh..gud luck test besok...
The only thing u left in my car. I threw it away,u know the things? It is the last bfast u feed me, the last water u give me. The 'roti kacang" and the 100 plus. We bought it when we pit stop at SHELL near TTDI dear. On our way to the place U breaak all ur promise and the day U slash my heart. Hehhehee.... Hard for me to throw it away, but, the person dat washing my car threw it away in front of my eyes. I kept the rubbish for 4 months++. The tear like to drop off my eyes, I just try to hold it. Damn..I still feel sumting for U,The love, Its gone 4 u, not 4 me..:p.
The important things is, I still remember about ***, and the jcm last nite, make me feel good. And I've to throw the rubbish away. Cos it can cause disease.
Last nite I suddenly remembered the situtation U almost "hilang". Remembered AISHAH, fren of Zaly. Dat nite I went for a drink with zaly and his two colleagues, U refuse to join. I knew why, It cant be wrote down here. Not gud. By the time I finish the "lepak" wit Zaly, when I reach my car, the car was lock. And U are not there!!!!. Damn, where r u, the only things in my mind, maybe sumone kidnapped u. Damn, like battle in a war, I look for zaly and asking him whether he saw u or not. By the time of my " gelbah + kelam kabut" I saw u standing in front of the "Mamak". Oh god, thanks to u. Dunno what will happen, if I cant find u dat nite. And there's sumting U said to me,about my reaction when U enter my car. Its just a memory flashback, when I drove thru that scene, last nite.
Thats my suffer, whereever I go, the memories will flashing back, dats y I said, I'm suffering, and hard for me to forget U. Sorry, this story noting to do wit anybody, it just a story of "ASH".
Hehheheh..gud luck test besok...
M.U kalah.. :P
Salam..
If U 1 2 call, just call. If u 1 2 mesej, just mesej. I never hate U, never, there's nothing I hate about u, even u break ur peomise. if I hate U, I'll make u suffer, I'll make u hate to live, I'll break all my "promise", U know what I can do...rite? But until today, I never hate U even U make me suffer. Its ok, coz I know, I'm not perfect, and I've to accept and learning to accept it.
If my voice can calm u down, raise up ur morale, so, I beg u to call me. I like to see U success my dear. Just keep it secret so dat both of u not fighting each other. Just let me bear all the suffer, just remember, ur smile, is my tonic. I see u smiling, dats smile make my day happy. Maybe one day.....
-------ASH36 not ur enemy, he's ur friend. Ur Guardian-------
If U 1 2 call, just call. If u 1 2 mesej, just mesej. I never hate U, never, there's nothing I hate about u, even u break ur peomise. if I hate U, I'll make u suffer, I'll make u hate to live, I'll break all my "promise", U know what I can do...rite? But until today, I never hate U even U make me suffer. Its ok, coz I know, I'm not perfect, and I've to accept and learning to accept it.
If my voice can calm u down, raise up ur morale, so, I beg u to call me. I like to see U success my dear. Just keep it secret so dat both of u not fighting each other. Just let me bear all the suffer, just remember, ur smile, is my tonic. I see u smiling, dats smile make my day happy. Maybe one day.....
-------ASH36 not ur enemy, he's ur friend. Ur Guardian-------
ape kena mu ni?
Salam,
Haaahaha, seem like u got upsidedown unstable brain system. Hihihi. What related to 16 january? Anything spesel? Whatever it is, I personally wish u best of luck for ur test n ur exam dis wednesday. Can u tell me dtails about the exam schedule,?
Thank you...
Haaahaha, seem like u got upsidedown unstable brain system. Hihihi. What related to 16 january? Anything spesel? Whatever it is, I personally wish u best of luck for ur test n ur exam dis wednesday. Can u tell me dtails about the exam schedule,?
Thank you...
Friday, April 15, 2011
Gud luck.
Salam
OooOooOoo..exam on wednesday, yeah, "***" should be a better person + honest + "setia". Hehehehe...so, wish "***" best of luck. Hope ur mom in a gud situation. She always have problem. Same to u oso.
Thanks for lying to me. April 15th, its 4 months, 6 days. Huh..still wounded inside. No..never think of it, never think of me. Just think of HIM. I'm nothing to do with ***, what I wanna wrote, just about my broken wounded heart. So, let it be wounded ever. He can fucking replace me, but, until today, nobody can replace ***, I'm starting to hate, not believing in LOVE. LOVE is suck...
Zailani, my boss, giving the confirmation letter, after (19 July 2010 - 15 April 2011) = plus minus 9 months. What's my reaction? I refuse to giving back the letter. He keep asking me, everyday. I just said, I dunno where I put the letter. He under estimate. He once said " Ashrul tu xlayak jadi engineer", "tu yang bos mintak benti tu", and many more. I got the strength cos *** still wit me, *** giving a lot of spirit, power to overcome all the critics. By the way, a lot of the critics come after December, after I lost focus, after I lost all the power I got, seem like never be appreciated. *** never know the tension I had, coz of the break up. Zailani expect me to perform well in the factory, weyh, damn fuck, dats mechanical things, how can I learn in short time, I'm electrical. I'm not perfect, zailani always thought I'm too good, I'm perfect Engineer, just like ***, wanna me to be perfect, and I'm not, n I never be given chance to fix and upgrade myself. NEVER BE GIVEN ANY OPPORTUNITY.
It already be a history, *** now happy wit him. Sumone better than me. Its ok, *** will never be safe if come to me. I'm bad...seriously. I took the wrong path, sorry. Its becoz of ***.
One more think, y fucking lonely, boring all that. Mangkuk ayun tu not text u? Not calling u? Hmm...just got back from work. Feeling tired...too tired..am I dying.? hehehehehe..
P/S: I can wrote in B.M, but I'm the one ** knew, there's a cause I become like dis. :P....CHILLED..!!!!
OooOooOoo..exam on wednesday, yeah, "***" should be a better person + honest + "setia". Hehehehe...so, wish "***" best of luck. Hope ur mom in a gud situation. She always have problem. Same to u oso.
Thanks for lying to me. April 15th, its 4 months, 6 days. Huh..still wounded inside. No..never think of it, never think of me. Just think of HIM. I'm nothing to do with ***, what I wanna wrote, just about my broken wounded heart. So, let it be wounded ever. He can fucking replace me, but, until today, nobody can replace ***, I'm starting to hate, not believing in LOVE. LOVE is suck...
Zailani, my boss, giving the confirmation letter, after (19 July 2010 - 15 April 2011) = plus minus 9 months. What's my reaction? I refuse to giving back the letter. He keep asking me, everyday. I just said, I dunno where I put the letter. He under estimate. He once said " Ashrul tu xlayak jadi engineer", "tu yang bos mintak benti tu", and many more. I got the strength cos *** still wit me, *** giving a lot of spirit, power to overcome all the critics. By the way, a lot of the critics come after December, after I lost focus, after I lost all the power I got, seem like never be appreciated. *** never know the tension I had, coz of the break up. Zailani expect me to perform well in the factory, weyh, damn fuck, dats mechanical things, how can I learn in short time, I'm electrical. I'm not perfect, zailani always thought I'm too good, I'm perfect Engineer, just like ***, wanna me to be perfect, and I'm not, n I never be given chance to fix and upgrade myself. NEVER BE GIVEN ANY OPPORTUNITY.
It already be a history, *** now happy wit him. Sumone better than me. Its ok, *** will never be safe if come to me. I'm bad...seriously. I took the wrong path, sorry. Its becoz of ***.
One more think, y fucking lonely, boring all that. Mangkuk ayun tu not text u? Not calling u? Hmm...just got back from work. Feeling tired...too tired..am I dying.? hehehehehe..
P/S: I can wrote in B.M, but I'm the one ** knew, there's a cause I become like dis. :P....CHILLED..!!!!
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
High temper
Salam,
Damn, suddenly feel bad, feel hot, feel angry....feel like I need sumone to beat. Seem like I must have a fight with sumone. I just finish watch a drama. Its about a man that going crazy. Its becoz, his girl married sumone after he left her. After a while, he want her back, just like gila talak. At the end of story, he cought by police becoz sudah gila. Oh, god, give me a strength to face this 'bala'. I never feel want to leave her, so, please let me, pass this "exam". Please oh my god ALLAH S.W.T.
Please lower down my temper, I can't hold it anymore. Its pain, to who should I ask, if not from YOU.
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Damn, suddenly feel bad, feel hot, feel angry....feel like I need sumone to beat. Seem like I must have a fight with sumone. I just finish watch a drama. Its about a man that going crazy. Its becoz, his girl married sumone after he left her. After a while, he want her back, just like gila talak. At the end of story, he cought by police becoz sudah gila. Oh, god, give me a strength to face this 'bala'. I never feel want to leave her, so, please let me, pass this "exam". Please oh my god ALLAH S.W.T.
Please lower down my temper, I can't hold it anymore. Its pain, to who should I ask, if not from YOU.
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Friday, April 8, 2011
Monday, April 4, 2011
Lost..lost....
Salam
Damn ... jammed, yesterday lost my first game for SAMSUNG.Play well but being subs just becoz to let everybody played the friendly game. Today, I lost single badminton game wit my colleague in SAMSUNG, high tension game for me.
Ateen..ateen, who make u tension. Is it me? I hope not, coz, what I wrote in this blog is noting. It only have a meaning for me only.If not becoz of me, it coz by who. Tell me so that I can kick his/her ass.
:)
Damn ... jammed, yesterday lost my first game for SAMSUNG.Play well but being subs just becoz to let everybody played the friendly game. Today, I lost single badminton game wit my colleague in SAMSUNG, high tension game for me.
Ateen..ateen, who make u tension. Is it me? I hope not, coz, what I wrote in this blog is noting. It only have a meaning for me only.If not becoz of me, it coz by who. Tell me so that I can kick his/her ass.
:)
Friday, April 1, 2011
The present
Salam.
Now I'm missing u, just finish watching TRANSFORMER, the last muvi we watched, b4 I flew to Saudi. And suddenly I remembered, the day I got angry with u, at JUSCO Bukit Tinggi. Its becoz U buy sumting, I get angry, coz U didn't ask my favour to help U. I get worried if U use dat money, u'll dun have any money to use when u get into new sem. After U show me the "things", I got shock, can't say anything,"kelu". Never, nobody did that to me, and dats y I always wearing it, its so damn special and now, it has gone. Go back to the real owner, let "it" be wit its couple even U break our relationship. I know u dun want this, but u force urself. :)
Just that, just "teringat" kisah lalu yang bahagia. Why ............
Now I'm missing u, just finish watching TRANSFORMER, the last muvi we watched, b4 I flew to Saudi. And suddenly I remembered, the day I got angry with u, at JUSCO Bukit Tinggi. Its becoz U buy sumting, I get angry, coz U didn't ask my favour to help U. I get worried if U use dat money, u'll dun have any money to use when u get into new sem. After U show me the "things", I got shock, can't say anything,"kelu". Never, nobody did that to me, and dats y I always wearing it, its so damn special and now, it has gone. Go back to the real owner, let "it" be wit its couple even U break our relationship. I know u dun want this, but u force urself. :)
Just that, just "teringat" kisah lalu yang bahagia. Why ............
Monday, March 28, 2011
Sunday, March 27, 2011
SI Bangsat Afik WKB 1***
Salam
U knew my blog huh. Good. Dunno how u can get my blog address. No shame? U take sumone gf,think u gud enough huh, u never know her, like I knew her.
But, now u got her, so take gud care of her. Or else, I "pick" u up.
U motherfucker bloodyhell boy. U safe just becoz of her.
U knew my blog huh. Good. Dunno how u can get my blog address. No shame? U take sumone gf,think u gud enough huh, u never know her, like I knew her.
But, now u got her, so take gud care of her. Or else, I "pick" u up.
U motherfucker bloodyhell boy. U safe just becoz of her.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
What happen to u
Salam.
can u tell me what actually happen to u overthere. U seem not very happy overthere. About money, what's theproblem? Tell me if u got problem wit money, I can help u. I'm ur fren my dear ateen nyq.
Miscommunication? U have fight wit him? Let me know, or if I'll ask my fren. Bad things will happen if I get the info from sumone else.
Please understand, I want u to be happy, can u get that?
Regret? What is this. U got ur stady, ur "better" bf, new student life. What else do u want?
LOVE? U got fiq rite? What else, trying to break ur new love or what, u unable to give urself any satisfaction. I still loving u until now, after plus minus 4 months. I still can accept u back, even u've kiss him or whatever u did.
There's a lot of secret I want to tell u, about how I know allabout ur secret.
Plesse online tonite, I would like to cht wit u.
Please dun say u cant turn back, coz actually, u DONT WANT to turn back. :)
U the only luv i got from all girl i mey b4. :p
can u tell me what actually happen to u overthere. U seem not very happy overthere. About money, what's theproblem? Tell me if u got problem wit money, I can help u. I'm ur fren my dear ateen nyq.
Miscommunication? U have fight wit him? Let me know, or if I'll ask my fren. Bad things will happen if I get the info from sumone else.
Please understand, I want u to be happy, can u get that?
Regret? What is this. U got ur stady, ur "better" bf, new student life. What else do u want?
LOVE? U got fiq rite? What else, trying to break ur new love or what, u unable to give urself any satisfaction. I still loving u until now, after plus minus 4 months. I still can accept u back, even u've kiss him or whatever u did.
There's a lot of secret I want to tell u, about how I know allabout ur secret.
Plesse online tonite, I would like to cht wit u.
Please dun say u cant turn back, coz actually, u DONT WANT to turn back. :)
U the only luv i got from all girl i mey b4. :p
Damn pain....
Salam,
Just arrived from JELAI, tired fucking damn. Feel very touching man when the time I see them " bersanding " maa. At the end of the ceremony, he shake my hand, and I give him an advice to take care of his wife, and take care of himself. Stop all the bad things, just let me go on with my new attitude. The tears, come out, when both of us, hug each others. It's becoz I know everything about his life, about his previous lurve, and so him. he knew everything about me. he knew how I've been "tocer" within this +-4 months. He saw I cry the day I try to defend my "lurve", dat she sold.
When i reached home, I forgot that I got a friendly game. The time I arrived, I just changed my cloth and straightly went to the field and play, even I got injuries at my ass. Damn fuck, pain when I'm sprinting. Shit...
I involve in a fight with opposition keeper after he kick my friend at the face. Luckily him, coz one of the old timer bring me out from the crowd, if not, I'll kick him at his face too. I gave him a warning to standby, coz I will revenge for my fren. Just 10 minutes after the accident, I scored the goal after that damn keeper try to dribble me out, but, he failed. What he, I'm cikai player kaa? Hey man, I played football and all my fitness training is becoz of my gf (last time la...). I scored, and I boo him. Hahahaha...stupid keeper.
History been made today, my cousin married, and I scored the first friedly game goal, without the necklace + ring. The thing I always kiss if I played well in any game. :). Thanks for giving me that "power"
As 4 u..here I post some picture of the wedding
Just arrived from JELAI, tired fucking damn. Feel very touching man when the time I see them " bersanding " maa. At the end of the ceremony, he shake my hand, and I give him an advice to take care of his wife, and take care of himself. Stop all the bad things, just let me go on with my new attitude. The tears, come out, when both of us, hug each others. It's becoz I know everything about his life, about his previous lurve, and so him. he knew everything about me. he knew how I've been "tocer" within this +-4 months. He saw I cry the day I try to defend my "lurve", dat she sold.
When i reached home, I forgot that I got a friendly game. The time I arrived, I just changed my cloth and straightly went to the field and play, even I got injuries at my ass. Damn fuck, pain when I'm sprinting. Shit...
I involve in a fight with opposition keeper after he kick my friend at the face. Luckily him, coz one of the old timer bring me out from the crowd, if not, I'll kick him at his face too. I gave him a warning to standby, coz I will revenge for my fren. Just 10 minutes after the accident, I scored the goal after that damn keeper try to dribble me out, but, he failed. What he, I'm cikai player kaa? Hey man, I played football and all my fitness training is becoz of my gf (last time la...). I scored, and I boo him. Hahahaha...stupid keeper.
History been made today, my cousin married, and I scored the first friedly game goal, without the necklace + ring. The thing I always kiss if I played well in any game. :). Thanks for giving me that "power"
As 4 u..here I post some picture of the wedding
Friday, March 25, 2011
Married Event
Salam:
Zaly has change his status to a husband to sumone. The time Kadi shake his hand, it flashback all my memories to u, Fatin. Everything within the short second. It shud be us on that situation next year, but u choose ur own path, and I have to respect that.
In one short "lafaz akad", he successfully take HAWA as his wife. May god bless him and his new path of life. Hope the will be happy ever after.
As for my life, I still frustrated with wat happen to me on 9 December 2010. Never think of it, but it has been set by ALLAH.
Fatin, even U left me, I still ur fren. I hope u'll doing well in ur exam. Pleae dear..Good luck...
Zaly has change his status to a husband to sumone. The time Kadi shake his hand, it flashback all my memories to u, Fatin. Everything within the short second. It shud be us on that situation next year, but u choose ur own path, and I have to respect that.
In one short "lafaz akad", he successfully take HAWA as his wife. May god bless him and his new path of life. Hope the will be happy ever after.
As for my life, I still frustrated with wat happen to me on 9 December 2010. Never think of it, but it has been set by ALLAH.
Fatin, even U left me, I still ur fren. I hope u'll doing well in ur exam. Pleae dear..Good luck...
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Waiting?
Salam
U!!!!
What happened? What u waiting for? Seem like u have bad days. Why? Related to me? Or u not happy wit him.
Dis month, I always come back late from work, too often. Reach home at 9:00 o'clock. Too tired working, just like slave in jail. Damn!!
This remind me to u, coz, around dis kind of time, u always mcj me, and that I'm replying 'nak tak nak je'. Huhuhu, but now, no body mcj me. :P. Hurts a lot.
I always remembering at u, In anything I do. Everything I do. I do it for us. So that I'm able to take u as my wife within 2 years. RM 40,000 in my mind set, for our wedding, If I save RM 1,000 per month, it can reach RM 24,000 without the interest. After total it up with my default saving with dividend from the ASB and unit trust, I believe I can touch over RM 40,000.00. Should our wedding will be a great wedding ceremony. In effort achieving that, with the salary around RM 2,400 without O.T and daily 0800-1800 working hours. I've to make OT within limit of 50 hours per month that can give me RM 400 per month.
Dats y, I always come back late, and make u feel neglected. I'm totally "serabut" with the load of my job. All my plan has burst up. Totally lost. Everything I plan for us, has gone to depth of the sea. Now U belong to him. Its not ur fault dear. Its not your fault. Its mine. I should not do dis to u. The thing I should do is to let U go, long time ago. When U starting not let me see wat inside ur phone. When U starting counting my call and mcj. I should......
Remember, dat I'm wrote dis thing is not to make u sad. I just want U to know dat my luv to u, is priceless. Everything I did just for U. Even now you've gone. U're still in my heart, and I still talking to people, to my friend about our sweet memories, how u change me to a better man.
We did everything together and I'll keep all of the secret with me. If U free, and want to meet me, just let me know. I'll meet U wit the status of FRIEND, cos I'm realize, I'm not important in your life anymore. I'm not ur BF anymore, hmm...dat horrible but its reality. Hehehehe
Exam just around the corner, pls do not lost ur focus. I know, if u lost ur focus, then, it'll be problem. Please success, score the paper, By GOD will, both of U will graduate together. Hope U'll invite me for the convocation. U know? It nice if both of U graduate together. Yes...its true, I dun have dat experience, but, I saw the happiness from all my fren, when they graduate as a couple, damn nice and sweet.....
:)
I miss ur smile, I miss to candid ur picture, candid ur video, but I'm not gud enough for u. Have ur fun in your life. I'm always at ur side, if there's anyone hurt u, pls let me know, I'll break their face into pieces. Please be happy..Please...I need to see u happy...I'm ok wit dis...just let me see ur smile...please..a webcam session...? hope to see ur smile...its ok if u refuse to...
Just concerntrate to exam syg...please..u scared me up la ....oi..
U!!!!
What happened? What u waiting for? Seem like u have bad days. Why? Related to me? Or u not happy wit him.
Dis month, I always come back late from work, too often. Reach home at 9:00 o'clock. Too tired working, just like slave in jail. Damn!!
This remind me to u, coz, around dis kind of time, u always mcj me, and that I'm replying 'nak tak nak je'. Huhuhu, but now, no body mcj me. :P. Hurts a lot.
I always remembering at u, In anything I do. Everything I do. I do it for us. So that I'm able to take u as my wife within 2 years. RM 40,000 in my mind set, for our wedding, If I save RM 1,000 per month, it can reach RM 24,000 without the interest. After total it up with my default saving with dividend from the ASB and unit trust, I believe I can touch over RM 40,000.00. Should our wedding will be a great wedding ceremony. In effort achieving that, with the salary around RM 2,400 without O.T and daily 0800-1800 working hours. I've to make OT within limit of 50 hours per month that can give me RM 400 per month.
Dats y, I always come back late, and make u feel neglected. I'm totally "serabut" with the load of my job. All my plan has burst up. Totally lost. Everything I plan for us, has gone to depth of the sea. Now U belong to him. Its not ur fault dear. Its not your fault. Its mine. I should not do dis to u. The thing I should do is to let U go, long time ago. When U starting not let me see wat inside ur phone. When U starting counting my call and mcj. I should......
Remember, dat I'm wrote dis thing is not to make u sad. I just want U to know dat my luv to u, is priceless. Everything I did just for U. Even now you've gone. U're still in my heart, and I still talking to people, to my friend about our sweet memories, how u change me to a better man.
We did everything together and I'll keep all of the secret with me. If U free, and want to meet me, just let me know. I'll meet U wit the status of FRIEND, cos I'm realize, I'm not important in your life anymore. I'm not ur BF anymore, hmm...dat horrible but its reality. Hehehehe
Exam just around the corner, pls do not lost ur focus. I know, if u lost ur focus, then, it'll be problem. Please success, score the paper, By GOD will, both of U will graduate together. Hope U'll invite me for the convocation. U know? It nice if both of U graduate together. Yes...its true, I dun have dat experience, but, I saw the happiness from all my fren, when they graduate as a couple, damn nice and sweet.....
:)
I miss ur smile, I miss to candid ur picture, candid ur video, but I'm not gud enough for u. Have ur fun in your life. I'm always at ur side, if there's anyone hurt u, pls let me know, I'll break their face into pieces. Please be happy..Please...I need to see u happy...I'm ok wit dis...just let me see ur smile...please..a webcam session...? hope to see ur smile...its ok if u refuse to...
Just concerntrate to exam syg...please..u scared me up la ....oi..
Saturday, March 19, 2011
U KNOW IT
What the hell happening there? Are u happy wit him or not? Why low mark? Why dis thing can happened? I thought get better life overthere after dump me here.
Am I ever saying abou sinar fm? Kihkhihkih....
About my ring, its ok if u cant pick it up, I understand ur status. Even u didnt act like dat when u`re mine long time ago.
One more cyg, please dun pray for god to bless me. Coz I'm not doing anything gud lately, and future. And ever. Kahakhakahaha
Do ur best for ur exam. I know u can, just like the time u become my assistant before. Remember? U dunno anything about project managemnt. About engineering depatment. But u able to proceed. Please be the girl I met before. Happy, full of smile, beautiful like a red rose in my pocket.
I hope, one day, I'll receive the call from 0135898744, just hoping, my feeling is not important anymore. Not for me, and of not for u, cos I'm no body.
Please get a gud result and let me know. Dun sleep late at night, control ur food, keep ur focus, dun be sad, ask him to help u up(not like me, just make u angry everyday) .
I KNOW U CAN DO THIS.......C'mon, fuck them up, all the exam papers, fuck them up....Wuuuuaaarrrgghhhh!!!!!!!!
Am I ever saying abou sinar fm? Kihkhihkih....
About my ring, its ok if u cant pick it up, I understand ur status. Even u didnt act like dat when u`re mine long time ago.
One more cyg, please dun pray for god to bless me. Coz I'm not doing anything gud lately, and future. And ever. Kahakhakahaha
Do ur best for ur exam. I know u can, just like the time u become my assistant before. Remember? U dunno anything about project managemnt. About engineering depatment. But u able to proceed. Please be the girl I met before. Happy, full of smile, beautiful like a red rose in my pocket.
I hope, one day, I'll receive the call from 0135898744, just hoping, my feeling is not important anymore. Not for me, and of not for u, cos I'm no body.
Please get a gud result and let me know. Dun sleep late at night, control ur food, keep ur focus, dun be sad, ask him to help u up(not like me, just make u angry everyday) .
I KNOW U CAN DO THIS.......C'mon, fuck them up, all the exam papers, fuck them up....Wuuuuaaarrrgghhhh!!!!!!!!
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Gud luck
Salam,
Ateen nyq, how's ur day, hope u're in good n healthy. No answer for my request, I assume it as cannot. Is it?
Your final exam just around the corner, do your best my dear. I want u to be a successful woman. Thats what I want, when we are couple before. I dreamed to be at ur side on ur convocation day, but...its not gonna be happen. It s ok then, just do your best. Just think about ur future, ur exam and ur AFIQ. Cos u got him now. I dunno whether u happy or not, but sumone said u're happy now. I'm happy for u, even deep inside my heart, its still wounded badly. No worries dear, by time it'll getting better. I hope so.....
Ateen,
I just wanna say, U know how much I'm loving u. I luv u more than I luv myself. The time u choose to go away from me, its like a tsunami hitting my heart. After 3 months, I still fight to throw u away, but I failed to do so. Sometime I cry in the middle of the night, alone, with ur picture on my side. I blame myself, y, I did dis to u.
I'm sorry for everything....
Ateen nyq, how's ur day, hope u're in good n healthy. No answer for my request, I assume it as cannot. Is it?
Your final exam just around the corner, do your best my dear. I want u to be a successful woman. Thats what I want, when we are couple before. I dreamed to be at ur side on ur convocation day, but...its not gonna be happen. It s ok then, just do your best. Just think about ur future, ur exam and ur AFIQ. Cos u got him now. I dunno whether u happy or not, but sumone said u're happy now. I'm happy for u, even deep inside my heart, its still wounded badly. No worries dear, by time it'll getting better. I hope so.....
Ateen,
I just wanna say, U know how much I'm loving u. I luv u more than I luv myself. The time u choose to go away from me, its like a tsunami hitting my heart. After 3 months, I still fight to throw u away, but I failed to do so. Sometime I cry in the middle of the night, alone, with ur picture on my side. I blame myself, y, I did dis to u.
I'm sorry for everything....
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Sunday, March 13, 2011
The smile
Salam
ATeeN nYQ
y u change ur fb picture? Why? Let me see ur smile. Let me be happy by seeing u smiling. Dat smile, the smile I always wait every sem. The smile I wait for every moment when i'm wit u. Now u loving him, just go on, but let me see the smile. Let me know dat u happy wit him.
Yesterday sumting bad happen. Its happen in SAMSUNG FAMILY DAY, almost, I Almost cry when i knew dat......
I think, just let me keep the sadness. I believe dat it is related to my dream about u in my last post.
I'm sorry for everything. I'll keep my promise to u. All of it dear
Jage diri baik baik ATeen nyQ
ATeeN nYQ
y u change ur fb picture? Why? Let me see ur smile. Let me be happy by seeing u smiling. Dat smile, the smile I always wait every sem. The smile I wait for every moment when i'm wit u. Now u loving him, just go on, but let me see the smile. Let me know dat u happy wit him.
Yesterday sumting bad happen. Its happen in SAMSUNG FAMILY DAY, almost, I Almost cry when i knew dat......
I think, just let me keep the sadness. I believe dat it is related to my dream about u in my last post.
I'm sorry for everything. I'll keep my promise to u. All of it dear
Jage diri baik baik ATeen nyQ
Thursday, March 10, 2011
2 days after nine march 2011
U noe wat is the meaning date of nine for ebery month? Its the day, sumone break her promise to, the dat sumone betrayed me. That sumone is... Only u noe who is her. Last night i dreamed about. I just looking at u from far. Its lile u have gone too far from me. While I'm feeling sad. Maybe u happy wit him. Its ok then. Enjoy u life,enjoy ur luv.
Jage diri baik baik cyg.
Jage diri baik baik cyg.
Monday, March 7, 2011
lucky me and zaly
Salam,
its my luck also zaly, when we on our way to klang, almost hit by bus, thank god i'm able to control my BFS.
And I still alive. I stil can write in my blog. I just misssing u, huhuhu, hope that not wrong. Even I have no chance to fix it, I'll try it again and again.
Its just ur picture left in my hp, laptop, table, also in office. Just our memory. Maybe ur love to him has growing up, and u'll forget me sooner. Wht can I do, I'm too busy looking for money, to ask for your hand, but dis thing appen. My finger still not recover yet, sooner got sumting , some job to do. Hope i'll recover soon.
If one day, this blog not active. No new post, if one day my facebook not updated. Just kol zaly, might be i'm not here anymore. I've the dark route, bust I cant turn back. Just tc of urself.
U know how much I love u, but y u give ur love to him. I'm soorry not making u hppy when u're wit me.
Jage diri baik baik syg, i'm cant be near to u anymore......I'M SORY COZ CHOOSING THIS GROUP, I JUST CANT TURN BCK
its my luck also zaly, when we on our way to klang, almost hit by bus, thank god i'm able to control my BFS.
And I still alive. I stil can write in my blog. I just misssing u, huhuhu, hope that not wrong. Even I have no chance to fix it, I'll try it again and again.
Its just ur picture left in my hp, laptop, table, also in office. Just our memory. Maybe ur love to him has growing up, and u'll forget me sooner. Wht can I do, I'm too busy looking for money, to ask for your hand, but dis thing appen. My finger still not recover yet, sooner got sumting , some job to do. Hope i'll recover soon.
If one day, this blog not active. No new post, if one day my facebook not updated. Just kol zaly, might be i'm not here anymore. I've the dark route, bust I cant turn back. Just tc of urself.
U know how much I love u, but y u give ur love to him. I'm soorry not making u hppy when u're wit me.
Jage diri baik baik syg, i'm cant be near to u anymore......I'M SORY COZ CHOOSING THIS GROUP, I JUST CANT TURN BCK
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
The pic
Salam
Hmmm, nice pic huh, remember where's the place? Remember who captured it? I still remember, coz I comment ur hair , "kenape rambut awk serabut? hehehhe..tapi sy syg awk jugak walaupun serabut..heehhe". Still fresh in my mind, and near to that place also, u got accident, on your way to go home. Still fresh in my mind.
Not updating this blog, coz, I'm not well, got injuries at my toe, already two weeks, but the the pain never get less. Maybe going for x-tray, coz my mom berleter already.
How r u? Not replying any of my message, or mail. Dun blame me, and please never say that I'm not tring to get u back, to tackle u back to me. Coz u not giving me any chance to do so. Feel so need to call u, coz missing u like shit.
U come to me? May be not, maybe ur luv to him growing up, and u'll forget me, like sand at the beach. Slowly will be taken by the water. Even u hate me, pls talk or call me, Ur voice is enough, to charge me up, I'm truly lost my guide now, dunno what to do. I'm sorry for not being the man u love to be. I'm sorry not being so romantic.
I should knew, dat I'm not the type of man to be wit sumone beatiful, pretty, cute like u. I should realise dat. Sorry coz putting u in bad relationship for 2.5 years. After u go, I become "suwey". not much interview, workload getting higher, I cant control my temper.
Its ok now if u're happy, from ur FB I can see u smile, from a picture of sad cartoon , now it change to a smiling girl, and I smile when saw the picture, even without the ice tea :). Hehhehe, very gud in editing ye ...hihihihihi
Jage diri baik baik sayang, "YOUR LOVE ALWAYS IN MY HEART EVEN I LOST U, AND THE RING"
Hmmm, nice pic huh, remember where's the place? Remember who captured it? I still remember, coz I comment ur hair , "kenape rambut awk serabut? hehehhe..tapi sy syg awk jugak walaupun serabut..heehhe". Still fresh in my mind, and near to that place also, u got accident, on your way to go home. Still fresh in my mind.
Not updating this blog, coz, I'm not well, got injuries at my toe, already two weeks, but the the pain never get less. Maybe going for x-tray, coz my mom berleter already.
How r u? Not replying any of my message, or mail. Dun blame me, and please never say that I'm not tring to get u back, to tackle u back to me. Coz u not giving me any chance to do so. Feel so need to call u, coz missing u like shit.
U come to me? May be not, maybe ur luv to him growing up, and u'll forget me, like sand at the beach. Slowly will be taken by the water. Even u hate me, pls talk or call me, Ur voice is enough, to charge me up, I'm truly lost my guide now, dunno what to do. I'm sorry for not being the man u love to be. I'm sorry not being so romantic.
I should knew, dat I'm not the type of man to be wit sumone beatiful, pretty, cute like u. I should realise dat. Sorry coz putting u in bad relationship for 2.5 years. After u go, I become "suwey". not much interview, workload getting higher, I cant control my temper.
Its ok now if u're happy, from ur FB I can see u smile, from a picture of sad cartoon , now it change to a smiling girl, and I smile when saw the picture, even without the ice tea :). Hehhehe, very gud in editing ye ...hihihihihi
Jage diri baik baik sayang, "YOUR LOVE ALWAYS IN MY HEART EVEN I LOST U, AND THE RING"
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Shit...
Afiq Nyq
"There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you."
Tuesday at 10:38pm
Pundek lu la...B.I bertabur, "I see no one but u", dat the correct one. Bongok, wat malu Fatin je ade Laki cam ko ni. U took sumbody girl, u realise dat, u'll be safe until the evil inside me blow out. Then dat time I'll feel no luv, only suck, fuck and all the evil things. Dat time u'll feel the pain.
BTW u did dis to me rite? One day, u'll feel the pain , if it not happen to u, it'll happen to ur mom, dad, wife maybe?, or ur children? or anyone that u luv? Coz u never ask , never say sorry for what u have done to me. I believe in ALLAH revenge, even I'm not a good guy, but I believe it, I believe in it.
"There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you."
Tuesday at 10:38pm
Pundek lu la...B.I bertabur, "I see no one but u", dat the correct one. Bongok, wat malu Fatin je ade Laki cam ko ni. U took sumbody girl, u realise dat, u'll be safe until the evil inside me blow out. Then dat time I'll feel no luv, only suck, fuck and all the evil things. Dat time u'll feel the pain.
BTW u did dis to me rite? One day, u'll feel the pain , if it not happen to u, it'll happen to ur mom, dad, wife maybe?, or ur children? or anyone that u luv? Coz u never ask , never say sorry for what u have done to me. I believe in ALLAH revenge, even I'm not a good guy, but I believe it, I believe in it.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Don't read this cyg
Salam,
Sorry not updating, my condition not allowed me to update but tonite I've to.
Dunno why I dream of her in 3 nite straight. Is it a sign? Gud or bad sign? Her boy not well now, maybe keep bz giving him treatment. Its ok..U happy? Then its ok...He safe not becoz of me, but u, I've promise to u, dat nite...I'll not harm him if u let me know who is the man that disturbing our relationship. Dats what I promise to u, and I'll keep my promise to u.
I try to find what've I done wrong to u. I found one by one, and I'll write here in my blog. The hotel in Klang, the place I spare for u. Just to make U happy and make u comfortable to hang out wit me. There's a mistake, coz my reaction to u, like I dun care about U. I'm really sorry, I really sorry about ur 'lunch/dinner time', I didn't mean that. Just...........I got some problem dat makes me little bit "xbetul". I admit that, it is my fault. I shouldn't did dat. I should not :(. Just saying that, even I'm dat 'kasar', or rude or 'x berbudi bahase', but my love to U, not base on dat particular things. I'm loving truly from my most deepest place in my heart.
After 2 months...almost 3 months. I hope U happy wit the new one. I wanna call u, asking ur condition, ur latest news but....I afraid that sumone name AFIQ will answer the phone. I'm sorry coz I become like this. I'm sorry about what've I done bad to u. I just ......just loving u...loving u too much....until I've to find sumting that can make me forget about, even for 1 minute. Dat sumting is PAIN.
I'm sorry, and I know my "SORRY" can't bring u back to me. Just pray for me everyday in ur SOLAT. I dunno wat I'll become later in future....
I'm Sorry.... :(
Sorry not updating, my condition not allowed me to update but tonite I've to.
Dunno why I dream of her in 3 nite straight. Is it a sign? Gud or bad sign? Her boy not well now, maybe keep bz giving him treatment. Its ok..U happy? Then its ok...He safe not becoz of me, but u, I've promise to u, dat nite...I'll not harm him if u let me know who is the man that disturbing our relationship. Dats what I promise to u, and I'll keep my promise to u.
I try to find what've I done wrong to u. I found one by one, and I'll write here in my blog. The hotel in Klang, the place I spare for u. Just to make U happy and make u comfortable to hang out wit me. There's a mistake, coz my reaction to u, like I dun care about U. I'm really sorry, I really sorry about ur 'lunch/dinner time', I didn't mean that. Just...........I got some problem dat makes me little bit "xbetul". I admit that, it is my fault. I shouldn't did dat. I should not :(. Just saying that, even I'm dat 'kasar', or rude or 'x berbudi bahase', but my love to U, not base on dat particular things. I'm loving truly from my most deepest place in my heart.
After 2 months...almost 3 months. I hope U happy wit the new one. I wanna call u, asking ur condition, ur latest news but....I afraid that sumone name AFIQ will answer the phone. I'm sorry coz I become like this. I'm sorry about what've I done bad to u. I just ......just loving u...loving u too much....until I've to find sumting that can make me forget about, even for 1 minute. Dat sumting is PAIN.
I'm sorry, and I know my "SORRY" can't bring u back to me. Just pray for me everyday in ur SOLAT. I dunno wat I'll become later in future....
I'm Sorry.... :(
Monday, February 14, 2011
sorry
I can't update my blog lately, coz my hand getting worse...
Take Care.
Just be happy if he makes u happy...
Not like me...
Take Care.
Just be happy if he makes u happy...
Not like me...
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Pain
Salam...
DOne my job in Pangkor Island...
My finger got damn hurt...dunno wat happen la...shit...any advice, any one...please...I take off the bandage, not comfortable...maybe dats the reason why my finger getting worse...
Btw..who's fucking care about me anymore...kah kah kah...
DOne my job in Pangkor Island...
My finger got damn hurt...dunno wat happen la...shit...any advice, any one...please...I take off the bandage, not comfortable...maybe dats the reason why my finger getting worse...
Btw..who's fucking care about me anymore...kah kah kah...
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Crack
Salam
Dats what happen. My finger cracked, after last night fighting. Feel damn hurt, ass hole. Jut went to clinic by motorcycle, just wanna check if anything bad happen. After doctor said u finger bone cracked. I got shocked...how did it happen. Hahahah..but its ok, the feel of the pain, litt;e bit makes me forgot a lot of my problem. My father disharge today from hospital.Hope he'll get better sooner..
To her; have a nice day and jage diri baik baik cyg...
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
PLAZA ALAM SENTRAL
This pictured was captured in September 2010. In front of Plaza Alam Sentral. I was very happy meeting her. Feeling so gud being with her. She always complained dat she's not dressing well, not make up well...but I told her, I dun care about dat. I never imagine the time I captured dis pic, she already get sumone new :(. I know my fault, y u didn't give the chance to fix it. What is his advantage? I want to work in Kedah, but U said I dun have to do dat....what should I do. Now, for sure he already hold ur hand, dunno wat will he'll be doing tomoro and so on. Its so easy for U, sack me and did like dis to me, then get flirting wit sumone new, while I got damn hurt here.
Thanks for every luv u show me for almost 3 years...:(
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Monday, January 31, 2011
It happen last week
Salam,
Sorry not updating, feeling not very well after the situation asking my fren money from one chinese at MERU klang. God damn it , he got the money, but didnt finish the job. Makes me hot. Yeah, I got him badly injured. Hahaha...satisfaction, now he knew who is AshRul.
To my girl, how r u? Hope u're very fine and happy. Happy wit the new one. By the way, how's ur new life, still won't contact me? Its ok, I know who I am, not at same level with u and ur new 'dog'..ooppss...boy.
Nothing to say, I just missing u much. Just missing all the place we went before. Now I'm in front of Quality hotel, got sumting to do. I got bussiness to do here. Be happy my dear, as long u happy, I dun care about other thing...
Take Care....
Sorry not updating, feeling not very well after the situation asking my fren money from one chinese at MERU klang. God damn it , he got the money, but didnt finish the job. Makes me hot. Yeah, I got him badly injured. Hahaha...satisfaction, now he knew who is AshRul.
To my girl, how r u? Hope u're very fine and happy. Happy wit the new one. By the way, how's ur new life, still won't contact me? Its ok, I know who I am, not at same level with u and ur new 'dog'..ooppss...boy.
Nothing to say, I just missing u much. Just missing all the place we went before. Now I'm in front of Quality hotel, got sumting to do. I got bussiness to do here. Be happy my dear, as long u happy, I dun care about other thing...
Take Care....
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Give me time
Salam.
I know both of u can read my blog. I still can't accept dis thing. It unacceptable. She said she love truly from her heart. Dats y I become crazy like dis. Just give me some time to cool down.
Sorry to my dear Fatin, U know my temper level. So U should understand why I become like dis....To him, If u truly want her, marrying her. Pls do take care of her, if u failed, I'll look for U. I'll take care of u (means him).
Sorry....I'll try cooloing down..Dont know why I got tempered easily.
Give me time....Sorry....
Sorry... :(
I know both of u can read my blog. I still can't accept dis thing. It unacceptable. She said she love truly from her heart. Dats y I become crazy like dis. Just give me some time to cool down.
Sorry to my dear Fatin, U know my temper level. So U should understand why I become like dis....To him, If u truly want her, marrying her. Pls do take care of her, if u failed, I'll look for U. I'll take care of u (means him).
Sorry....I'll try cooloing down..Dont know why I got tempered easily.
Give me time....Sorry....
Sorry... :(
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Cant talk?
Salam
U've no point anymore? cannot speak at all? Its ok, u shown the truth of u. Its ok, becoz u did dis before we engage or married. Thank coz "luv" all this time. I'll remember it, as u love me truly from ur heart. I'll remember all of our memories. I love u more than my life. U luv me based on ur benefit. Now I'm not benefiting u anymore, and u sack me out of ur life, thanks a lot. Now he hold ur hand, tomoro he have ur body. I know u happy, just like I said, If u have him, u can celebrate with, have a flower, a present. Not like couple wit me, have no opportunity to celebrate together. I'm sorry, cant give u that type of life.
**** In the end, I'm choosing the wrong decision, u fooled me. I just believe dat U're a nice fantastic girl I ever had. I'm wrong...and I'm sorry....
Sorryyy my dear....
U've no point anymore? cannot speak at all? Its ok, u shown the truth of u. Its ok, becoz u did dis before we engage or married. Thank coz "luv" all this time. I'll remember it, as u love me truly from ur heart. I'll remember all of our memories. I love u more than my life. U luv me based on ur benefit. Now I'm not benefiting u anymore, and u sack me out of ur life, thanks a lot. Now he hold ur hand, tomoro he have ur body. I know u happy, just like I said, If u have him, u can celebrate with, have a flower, a present. Not like couple wit me, have no opportunity to celebrate together. I'm sorry, cant give u that type of life.
**** In the end, I'm choosing the wrong decision, u fooled me. I just believe dat U're a nice fantastic girl I ever had. I'm wrong...and I'm sorry....
Sorryyy my dear....
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Shit!!!!
Damn!!!
What the fuck are u doing girl? Hah....God Damn It...Until this level u did to me? WTF!!!
U give ur phone num to that shit, make me burn. Now I know why U're not answering my call. I thought u just dun want to answer my call, but....U give that number to him. Perak boy, the number also start from 5, mean Perak area. Damn..it since the first day u in UiTM Kedah.
Why u change ur number? Is it wrong for me to call u? Is it wrong huh?!!!!! Just now I call him and talk to him. He fucking refuse to talk...why..damn scared? He said, "Camni de, sknk nie wa bkn takot ilang die, die mmg wa da dapat de, sknk ni kite settle baik, lu wat lu, wa wat hal wa...ok?"
Read it carefully, he's not scared of losing u, Afik, u're Mother fucker of hell. Fatin u read it ,"wa tak takut ilang die". Is ur future fiancee like dis? From dis statement, I hope u can evaluate him...I hope so, dunno wat he give U until u become blind like dis fucking shit hell.
I watched 'khurafat' yesterday, at BUKIT RAJA JUSCO, and I saw a sit, where I first meet U. Where I meet u as a friend. A few month later, we couple, and after u came back from JB, I've put all my trust to u. I should not did that. Thats my fault, why I trust u. Once I said, what if I "curang". U did said!!!!!!!! , "U wont's syg, if I see u with other girl, like a couple, I straightly go to u, so dat u can see me, and then I will "fucking" other man, coz I'm mad to u....." By this statement, I put all my luv to u. Why u keep cheating????!!!!
Afik kanina MCH said I dun care about U. Does he knew me? Does he knew what I've done for u? I suffer in Saudi, did he know dat? I work in SAMSUNG becoz here got OT, did he know why I want that OT? Why u said I dont know u? He knew u well huh...? Ok...ask him to meet me!!! Or else...U and him will see me overthere. U choose, the choice at ur hands.
Last time when u answered my call, U said U in no mood to go to class after read my blog, if U dun luv me any more, why u feel like dat, U still hv feeling for and u denying it. Come back to me my dear. U said how can U come back to me with dis kind of behavior of mine. Now I said!!!! U comeback first to me, then I'll be the old ASH and changing time by time.
Why u become like dis? Why? I keep u as my pride and I still put U at higher level. I love u more than my life. Why...If u not calling me in this week. Sumting will happen...Dont say " sy ckp je lebey, tapi x buat", do not challenging me, I'm not the old boy.
I'm sorry...U hate me, I cant change it.. Just remember u also have no fucking damn power to change the new me!!!!!!
ALLAH MaHA ADIL..
What the fuck are u doing girl? Hah....God Damn It...Until this level u did to me? WTF!!!
U give ur phone num to that shit, make me burn. Now I know why U're not answering my call. I thought u just dun want to answer my call, but....U give that number to him. Perak boy, the number also start from 5, mean Perak area. Damn..it since the first day u in UiTM Kedah.
Why u change ur number? Is it wrong for me to call u? Is it wrong huh?!!!!! Just now I call him and talk to him. He fucking refuse to talk...why..damn scared? He said, "Camni de, sknk nie wa bkn takot ilang die, die mmg wa da dapat de, sknk ni kite settle baik, lu wat lu, wa wat hal wa...ok?"
Read it carefully, he's not scared of losing u, Afik, u're Mother fucker of hell. Fatin u read it ,"wa tak takut ilang die". Is ur future fiancee like dis? From dis statement, I hope u can evaluate him...I hope so, dunno wat he give U until u become blind like dis fucking shit hell.
I watched 'khurafat' yesterday, at BUKIT RAJA JUSCO, and I saw a sit, where I first meet U. Where I meet u as a friend. A few month later, we couple, and after u came back from JB, I've put all my trust to u. I should not did that. Thats my fault, why I trust u. Once I said, what if I "curang". U did said!!!!!!!! , "U wont's syg, if I see u with other girl, like a couple, I straightly go to u, so dat u can see me, and then I will "fucking" other man, coz I'm mad to u....." By this statement, I put all my luv to u. Why u keep cheating????!!!!
Afik kanina MCH said I dun care about U. Does he knew me? Does he knew what I've done for u? I suffer in Saudi, did he know dat? I work in SAMSUNG becoz here got OT, did he know why I want that OT? Why u said I dont know u? He knew u well huh...? Ok...ask him to meet me!!! Or else...U and him will see me overthere. U choose, the choice at ur hands.
Last time when u answered my call, U said U in no mood to go to class after read my blog, if U dun luv me any more, why u feel like dat, U still hv feeling for and u denying it. Come back to me my dear. U said how can U come back to me with dis kind of behavior of mine. Now I said!!!! U comeback first to me, then I'll be the old ASH and changing time by time.
Why u become like dis? Why? I keep u as my pride and I still put U at higher level. I love u more than my life. Why...If u not calling me in this week. Sumting will happen...Dont say " sy ckp je lebey, tapi x buat", do not challenging me, I'm not the old boy.
I'm sorry...U hate me, I cant change it.. Just remember u also have no fucking damn power to change the new me!!!!!!
ALLAH MaHA ADIL..
Saturday, January 22, 2011
The second day
Its the second day of ur besday. Hmm..not picking up my call...god damn it. U said I went to Saudi not because of u, u said becoz of money. Damn, dat money is for u. I want to use it for our ceremony. Its 3000 miles from Malaysia, I suffer overthere, mental and physical. Then now U left me just becoz of call n msj is not reach the level u expecting for. I work for SAMSUNG coz here got overtime. So I can save more money, since u got another +- 2 years of study.
U said I dont understand u? Is Afik understand u? Is he know what I feel. Is he ever say sorry to me? Ok...I know u from Klang, I know how hard to take U out, how to "bawak awk kuar diam2". Do u think I like that, bring u out like that? What will people said if sumone see us like that. What if we kantoi, then ur brother belasah aku cukup2.?
He know u from UiTM, easy to hang out, easy for everything. It EASY!!!!! not like me in Klang. Just becoz less of mcj and call...u fuck me up!!!! Why, just come back to me, I know u can do dat. If possible both of u must meet me...before I enter ur classroom to meet both of u. Dun let me do that.
A friend of mine from Spain, working together wit me in Saudi, also feel sorry for and advise me just let u go. Yes...but I want to meet that bloody hell boy, Kalau die mampus lagi bagus.
Fuck la...stop smoking....do u know he keep smoking or not, u want a picture of him smoking? I can show u. Being hit by car for u? Is it make u feel 'touching" ker? Wey....I went to Saudi by plane, means, if the plane "jahanam" and going down, I'll be under the 'lautan Hindi" taw...Not enough for u? If u comeback for holiday, how many times I see u for a date? how many times...?
Yes, he got sumting I dun have, U're not materialistic, I know, but people change,U changed. U fuck my truly luv to u. All my saving just 4 u. For us to married and have happy family. All what I've done,is just for u, for U!!!!!
From what u said to me, it more to his stability of life. Yes, more secure la, bapak punye company maa....
U said u just test a relationship wit him, now u said that? What the hell? Last time u busy to engaged or watever, go ahead la, he's not serious la, he to young, he's FUCK!!!! Dun believe me? The time will come.
And dun forget to ask who is his couple last sem.....law student...
U said I dont understand u? Is Afik understand u? Is he know what I feel. Is he ever say sorry to me? Ok...I know u from Klang, I know how hard to take U out, how to "bawak awk kuar diam2". Do u think I like that, bring u out like that? What will people said if sumone see us like that. What if we kantoi, then ur brother belasah aku cukup2.?
He know u from UiTM, easy to hang out, easy for everything. It EASY!!!!! not like me in Klang. Just becoz less of mcj and call...u fuck me up!!!! Why, just come back to me, I know u can do dat. If possible both of u must meet me...before I enter ur classroom to meet both of u. Dun let me do that.
A friend of mine from Spain, working together wit me in Saudi, also feel sorry for and advise me just let u go. Yes...but I want to meet that bloody hell boy, Kalau die mampus lagi bagus.
Fuck la...stop smoking....do u know he keep smoking or not, u want a picture of him smoking? I can show u. Being hit by car for u? Is it make u feel 'touching" ker? Wey....I went to Saudi by plane, means, if the plane "jahanam" and going down, I'll be under the 'lautan Hindi" taw...Not enough for u? If u comeback for holiday, how many times I see u for a date? how many times...?
Yes, he got sumting I dun have, U're not materialistic, I know, but people change,U changed. U fuck my truly luv to u. All my saving just 4 u. For us to married and have happy family. All what I've done,is just for u, for U!!!!!
From what u said to me, it more to his stability of life. Yes, more secure la, bapak punye company maa....
U said u just test a relationship wit him, now u said that? What the hell? Last time u busy to engaged or watever, go ahead la, he's not serious la, he to young, he's FUCK!!!! Dun believe me? The time will come.
And dun forget to ask who is his couple last sem.....law student...
Thursday, January 20, 2011
What should I think of U
Salam
By the subject mention above, wat do u think. U said I dun noe u. U said dat? U said b4 dat, pls accepting u as wat u are. Do I complain anything about u? Do I? Is dat not enough. I know u!!! Dats y I want to change and u said its too late. In Saudi I ym u everyday, what if I'm not? U go to the other man?. Why it so easy for u to love sumone. U're my love after 4 years of being single. Means dat my last couple was when I was 20 years old. That means its not easy to give sumone my luv. I'm serious wit u, why u did this? I know, there's me in your heart. There's still got a space for me, u just deny it. I know u not a materialistic girl, but I've to say like dat, to cool my feeling. I really miss u, dats I call u. There's a present for U for your birthday.
Is it need to keep kol n msj everyday. If I'm not messaging u, y not u start it first. Once I msj u, u said no credit, then I ask u to top-up, u said no money and will top-up maybe after 1-2 weeks. Did I complain? Now who not understand the situation? U the one not understand me. U know what I did 4 u? Do u know what i did for our love? Do u know why I luv u? If u knew, pls mail me what is it. All the bad statement is just to "sedapkan hati". Just go on wit ur new luv, I knw that I can't changed anything excepting u change it.
Just be happy, as long u happy, I'll be happy. I'm feeling not very well, since u're gone, I always get sick. If afiq playing wit ur heart, dun blame me if he's being O*U. Thanks kerana pernah menyayangi sy. Tak pernah ade org syg sy macam awk syg sy. Tapi itu hanya sejarah......
By the subject mention above, wat do u think. U said I dun noe u. U said dat? U said b4 dat, pls accepting u as wat u are. Do I complain anything about u? Do I? Is dat not enough. I know u!!! Dats y I want to change and u said its too late. In Saudi I ym u everyday, what if I'm not? U go to the other man?. Why it so easy for u to love sumone. U're my love after 4 years of being single. Means dat my last couple was when I was 20 years old. That means its not easy to give sumone my luv. I'm serious wit u, why u did this? I know, there's me in your heart. There's still got a space for me, u just deny it. I know u not a materialistic girl, but I've to say like dat, to cool my feeling. I really miss u, dats I call u. There's a present for U for your birthday.
Is it need to keep kol n msj everyday. If I'm not messaging u, y not u start it first. Once I msj u, u said no credit, then I ask u to top-up, u said no money and will top-up maybe after 1-2 weeks. Did I complain? Now who not understand the situation? U the one not understand me. U know what I did 4 u? Do u know what i did for our love? Do u know why I luv u? If u knew, pls mail me what is it. All the bad statement is just to "sedapkan hati". Just go on wit ur new luv, I knw that I can't changed anything excepting u change it.
Just be happy, as long u happy, I'll be happy. I'm feeling not very well, since u're gone, I always get sick. If afiq playing wit ur heart, dun blame me if he's being O*U. Thanks kerana pernah menyayangi sy. Tak pernah ade org syg sy macam awk syg sy. Tapi itu hanya sejarah......
Happy birthday 23
Salam.
Happy birthday to u. Its ur 23 birthday celebration, and it must be cool and happy coz u can celebrate it wit ur "luv". If u couple wit me, u can't celebrate wit me. Good choice in selecting bf in the same class and very near to u.
I really hope u can finish wit him, hope u choose the right person. There no mata-mata. I am 28 years old, an engineer, UiTM graduate. I got friend from all level and status. Engineer, lecturer, operator, non-working person, student and etc. I got a lot of friend, they see u. They told me everything. I didnt pay anyone. I asking u to pickup my call and k.i.t wit me,but u refuse to do so. So that, I ask them, how u r overthere.
If I want to give u problem, u should know wat I got, wat I know about u. Two and half years u evaluating my luv just base on sms and call. U dont know how I'm suffering. I can do anything....I'm the man....
BTW...thanks for ur 2.5 years of luv. If we married and I can't contact u for a while, maybe u asking a divorce. Maybe U got sumone else wit the status bini org. God showed me who u r, and I'm wrong in evaluating u.
Thanks for showing the truth of urself Fatin Syazwani bt Ismail.
Happy birthday to u. Its ur 23 birthday celebration, and it must be cool and happy coz u can celebrate it wit ur "luv". If u couple wit me, u can't celebrate wit me. Good choice in selecting bf in the same class and very near to u.
I really hope u can finish wit him, hope u choose the right person. There no mata-mata. I am 28 years old, an engineer, UiTM graduate. I got friend from all level and status. Engineer, lecturer, operator, non-working person, student and etc. I got a lot of friend, they see u. They told me everything. I didnt pay anyone. I asking u to pickup my call and k.i.t wit me,but u refuse to do so. So that, I ask them, how u r overthere.
If I want to give u problem, u should know wat I got, wat I know about u. Two and half years u evaluating my luv just base on sms and call. U dont know how I'm suffering. I can do anything....I'm the man....
BTW...thanks for ur 2.5 years of luv. If we married and I can't contact u for a while, maybe u asking a divorce. Maybe U got sumone else wit the status bini org. God showed me who u r, and I'm wrong in evaluating u.
Thanks for showing the truth of urself Fatin Syazwani bt Ismail.
The eyes..
Salam
Now u updating....gud, and thanks. Now u hate me, u said "jurang semakin dalam". Is that mean u hate me too much. Why? Am I did sumting wrong my dear. All my fault is trusting u, believing all ur promise, giving all my luv to u. Thats my main fault.
What the people said overthere? Is the any gossip? Just go on wit ur new luv. I want to see if u success wit dat fucking boy. U want get engaged, go ahead, I wont stop u. After ur birthday, I'll stop chasing u. There no spy or anything. I got my line in Sg petani. I got a lot of friend.
Thanks for fucking lying to me.
Now u updating....gud, and thanks. Now u hate me, u said "jurang semakin dalam". Is that mean u hate me too much. Why? Am I did sumting wrong my dear. All my fault is trusting u, believing all ur promise, giving all my luv to u. Thats my main fault.
What the people said overthere? Is the any gossip? Just go on wit ur new luv. I want to see if u success wit dat fucking boy. U want get engaged, go ahead, I wont stop u. After ur birthday, I'll stop chasing u. There no spy or anything. I got my line in Sg petani. I got a lot of friend.
Thanks for fucking lying to me.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Money
Salam to all
The money...I'm not a rich person my dear. U left me, I'm not paying anyone ok. I'm not that rich to pay anyone. I told u, but dun believe me. I know everything, but deny it. Why? I just show u wat can I do. My dear, just go on wit ur new happy life, let me be like this. I miss u very much, I know u hate me. I know I cant make u love me again. Its ok, u know me, dun worry, I wont do anything stupid to U. I love u, u're my pride. U my true love, I did everything for u.
U did dis to me. Yes, its true, I'm getting hot, I'm angry. One night I sat down, and thinking of u. Even u did this shit to me, but U teach me the meaning of luv. I never luv sumone more than u. If u think he's better, u deserve a better man. I'm sorry for my behavior, like u said " less call and mcj". I become "gila duit" in SAMSUNG. I'm wrong, I dun appreciate u like u want. Just keep in your mind, my luv is not evaluated by the msj and phone call. Its because everything I did, just for u. U're my main target, I work for u, I went to Saudi is for u.
I'm not paying anyone syg, dun accuse me like that, even though u hate like shit.
I'm sorry about what happened...:(
The money...I'm not a rich person my dear. U left me, I'm not paying anyone ok. I'm not that rich to pay anyone. I told u, but dun believe me. I know everything, but deny it. Why? I just show u wat can I do. My dear, just go on wit ur new happy life, let me be like this. I miss u very much, I know u hate me. I know I cant make u love me again. Its ok, u know me, dun worry, I wont do anything stupid to U. I love u, u're my pride. U my true love, I did everything for u.
U did dis to me. Yes, its true, I'm getting hot, I'm angry. One night I sat down, and thinking of u. Even u did this shit to me, but U teach me the meaning of luv. I never luv sumone more than u. If u think he's better, u deserve a better man. I'm sorry for my behavior, like u said " less call and mcj". I become "gila duit" in SAMSUNG. I'm wrong, I dun appreciate u like u want. Just keep in your mind, my luv is not evaluated by the msj and phone call. Its because everything I did, just for u. U're my main target, I work for u, I went to Saudi is for u.
I'm not paying anyone syg, dun accuse me like that, even though u hate like shit.
I'm sorry about what happened...:(
Monday, January 17, 2011
Langsi...
"Diam.Ada yang berkata.Buat.Ada yang tak kena.Aku adalah aku.Aku bukan orang lain.Hidup seperti roda.Ada atas dan ada bawah.Aku bukan pembunuh.Jadi jangan jadikan aku seorang pembunuh."
A quote from him. That boy wanna be a murderer huh? Is it a joke, Come'on. U never want to meet me, u wont pick up my call. U not replying my mcj. Wat the fuck are u.? Wanna be a murderer but not strong enough to meet me. Meet me, I'll show u how to be a man. Pls dont be a big mouth person ok. This is what I said, not matured. Talking big, but nothing, bullshit. Live with the money from family. Hell u. Please la, u did sumting wrong, now u think u are dat gud huh. Oi, meet me la, then u know wit who u dealing wit. I'm not scared of death. Or u just like to be a poser. Pose with father car, wit father money, wit sumone girl. So do u think u gud enough? I'm ok wit Sg Petani resident. Dont be too confident wit the area u not expert enough.
It almost one month from the date u promise me....just confirm, we talk man to man...
Are u dare enough...?
A quote from him. That boy wanna be a murderer huh? Is it a joke, Come'on. U never want to meet me, u wont pick up my call. U not replying my mcj. Wat the fuck are u.? Wanna be a murderer but not strong enough to meet me. Meet me, I'll show u how to be a man. Pls dont be a big mouth person ok. This is what I said, not matured. Talking big, but nothing, bullshit. Live with the money from family. Hell u. Please la, u did sumting wrong, now u think u are dat gud huh. Oi, meet me la, then u know wit who u dealing wit. I'm not scared of death. Or u just like to be a poser. Pose with father car, wit father money, wit sumone girl. So do u think u gud enough? I'm ok wit Sg Petani resident. Dont be too confident wit the area u not expert enough.
It almost one month from the date u promise me....just confirm, we talk man to man...
Are u dare enough...?
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Please my dear
Salam;
Hope u're fine my dear. Dunno whether u open my blog or not. I'm not going to stress u up. Pls mcj me, if u read dis blog, got sumting to tell and ask u. What do u want 4 ur birthday? I just hope, if one day u're done wit him, pls do come back to me. Until today, I still remember u, please give me a chance, please dun forget me. I know its hard 4 u to forget me. Same wit me my dear.
I dunno whether he gonnaa serious wit u or not. But remember, dun give "dat" thing to him. Please, I just not sure is he luv u or "luv" u. I know u and him always bergayut, yes. I know my fault, forgive, dats only thing I'm asking for. I miss u very much. Please give me a chance.
Please, I'm sorry if u think I'm neglecting u, I'm sorry...wat should I do to get u back...cut myself as u did b4..?
Hope u're fine my dear. Dunno whether u open my blog or not. I'm not going to stress u up. Pls mcj me, if u read dis blog, got sumting to tell and ask u. What do u want 4 ur birthday? I just hope, if one day u're done wit him, pls do come back to me. Until today, I still remember u, please give me a chance, please dun forget me. I know its hard 4 u to forget me. Same wit me my dear.
I dunno whether he gonnaa serious wit u or not. But remember, dun give "dat" thing to him. Please, I just not sure is he luv u or "luv" u. I know u and him always bergayut, yes. I know my fault, forgive, dats only thing I'm asking for. I miss u very much. Please give me a chance.
Please, I'm sorry if u think I'm neglecting u, I'm sorry...wat should I do to get u back...cut myself as u did b4..?
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
New FB
Hi Ms Fatin...U got new fb huh, not informing me? Why? U need my fb, and u not informing me ur FB. Uask me not to delete anything, but hbu? Why u did dis? I told u before, I know everything. And I can get to know everything about and that damn boy. I told u dis thing would not be easy for both of u except u engaged and married. The time will come my dear....I know, u got a new boy, a new happy life. Of course la happy life, last sem he coupled wit sumone from law faculty. Did u know dat? I hope so..
A new life, got couple for stadi, got sumone near to u, got sumone to pick u up, to buy you things. Futhermore, he got big car; WAJA rite, not like me, only WIRA, gegar kuat lak tu. Working as Engineer but use WIRA only, second hand lak tu. Must be shame rite. Yup, I realise dat now. Plus, I working as Engineer, but not for my company, but he got company(coming soon la, His father company, yes...more money...more secure future.
No wonder can be engaged a.s.a.p.
I still don't believe dis. I don believe u did dis. I trust u 200% and u betrayed it. If u feel guilty, u should feel it, becoz u betray me, u betray my holy luv, u betraying all my luv 2 u. I'm trying to give a lot of luv of a man can give since u always told me about ur family problem and u're anak YATIM. But sumtime "WE CAN'T HAVE WAT WE WANT IN THIS WORLD" but we can fight for it. U said u give me chance b4, but u dunno when.
U now got new name huh...ATEEN ***. U already put his nick as ur name also. Very nice to hear, fuck up, but, the time will come.
Wish me best of luck, tomoro got sum assigment. As long I still wrote in this blog, means I still in this good health condition.
Thans fatin coz make me like dis
A new life, got couple for stadi, got sumone near to u, got sumone to pick u up, to buy you things. Futhermore, he got big car; WAJA rite, not like me, only WIRA, gegar kuat lak tu. Working as Engineer but use WIRA only, second hand lak tu. Must be shame rite. Yup, I realise dat now. Plus, I working as Engineer, but not for my company, but he got company(coming soon la, His father company, yes...more money...more secure future.
No wonder can be engaged a.s.a.p.
I still don't believe dis. I don believe u did dis. I trust u 200% and u betrayed it. If u feel guilty, u should feel it, becoz u betray me, u betray my holy luv, u betraying all my luv 2 u. I'm trying to give a lot of luv of a man can give since u always told me about ur family problem and u're anak YATIM. But sumtime "WE CAN'T HAVE WAT WE WANT IN THIS WORLD" but we can fight for it. U said u give me chance b4, but u dunno when.
U now got new name huh...ATEEN ***. U already put his nick as ur name also. Very nice to hear, fuck up, but, the time will come.
Wish me best of luck, tomoro got sum assigment. As long I still wrote in this blog, means I still in this good health condition.
Thans fatin coz make me like dis
Thursday, January 13, 2011
FATIN......Why..
Kau gadis ku yang cantik
Cuba lihat aku disini
Disini ade aku yang cinta padamu.
kau gadisku yang manis
Cuba lihat aku disini
Disini ade aku yang sayang padamu
Walau ku tahu,
Bahawa dirimu sudah ada yang punya,
Namun akan ku tunggu hingga kau mahu,
Jangan...jangan kau menolak cintaku,
Jangan...jangan kau ragukan hatiku
Ku kan setia menunggu,
Untuk jadi pacarmu.
Jangan...jangan kau tak terima cintaku,
Jangan...jangan kau hiraukan pacarmu
Putuskan la saja pacarmu,
Lalu bilang I LOVE U,
Padaku....
To "her", this song is like from Afiq to me...the lyric is exactly same wit what he did to me..and u...
Cuba lihat aku disini
Disini ade aku yang cinta padamu.
kau gadisku yang manis
Cuba lihat aku disini
Disini ade aku yang sayang padamu
Walau ku tahu,
Bahawa dirimu sudah ada yang punya,
Namun akan ku tunggu hingga kau mahu,
Jangan...jangan kau menolak cintaku,
Jangan...jangan kau ragukan hatiku
Ku kan setia menunggu,
Untuk jadi pacarmu.
Jangan...jangan kau tak terima cintaku,
Jangan...jangan kau hiraukan pacarmu
Putuskan la saja pacarmu,
Lalu bilang I LOVE U,
Padaku....
To "her", this song is like from Afiq to me...the lyric is exactly same wit what he did to me..and u...
Monday, January 10, 2011
One month
Its one month. The date that she broke all her promise to me. I still remember the day at genting, dunno y she did this. I dunno, whether she's fault or dat boy, or...is it my fault..? My fault for giving u all my lurve and my heart. Is it my fault trusting u 100%. Is it my fault of taking care of U. Is it my fault keeping defending U. I dunno, possibly yes is the answer.
Thanks syg, did me like this. Thanks for betraying me.........
http://itsmyninedecember2010.blogspot.com
Thanks syg, did me like this. Thanks for betraying me.........
http://itsmyninedecember2010.blogspot.com
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Still
Today, lost 2-0 to CJ team. Damn. but she wish me luck. I feel gud, but, i received the mcj after game finish. Huhuhu...she enjoyed overthere? is she? I dont think so. Last news, she quite bz, but its ok, maybe dat boy help him a lot, not like me...useless, loser. I'm getting lost now. Dunno wat happen to me...
To much problem. I lost my focus in everything I do. Should I accept the new offer? Which means I'll totally leave every memories in my beloved MALAYSIA. I really hope I can throw U away, but I can't. Please give a chance. I dunno wat I should do to get U back to me. I have no idea anymore. What advantage he got. Please let me know. If U want get engaged wit him, just go ahead, I'll ask him about dis. I dunno "wat" he use to get U from me. I dunno y U can leave just for sumone U know 4 3 months. Y u leave me 4 sumone dat hypocrite, sumone dat taking advantage of others. Y u can't see dat....?
Thats y I am too angry, U belong to sumone, then y, he did this. Then U backing him up, not backing me. I'm fighting when sumone talking bad about u. Till today, watever I do, I thinking of u. I dont sumone can take ur place i my heart. Pls do pick up my call. I'm missing u alot.....
Please..I'm sorry....I'm sorry....I'm sorry....I'm sorry....I'm sorry....I'm sorry....I'm sorry....
To much problem. I lost my focus in everything I do. Should I accept the new offer? Which means I'll totally leave every memories in my beloved MALAYSIA. I really hope I can throw U away, but I can't. Please give a chance. I dunno wat I should do to get U back to me. I have no idea anymore. What advantage he got. Please let me know. If U want get engaged wit him, just go ahead, I'll ask him about dis. I dunno "wat" he use to get U from me. I dunno y U can leave just for sumone U know 4 3 months. Y u leave me 4 sumone dat hypocrite, sumone dat taking advantage of others. Y u can't see dat....?
Thats y I am too angry, U belong to sumone, then y, he did this. Then U backing him up, not backing me. I'm fighting when sumone talking bad about u. Till today, watever I do, I thinking of u. I dont sumone can take ur place i my heart. Pls do pick up my call. I'm missing u alot.....
Please..I'm sorry....I'm sorry....I'm sorry....I'm sorry....I'm sorry....I'm sorry....I'm sorry....
Friday, January 7, 2011
Sorry..
08 Jan 2011
4:33 am
Just come back from Wangsa Maju, KL. Got 'game' tonite. Jst hang around, just a help from my buddies to get 'her' from my mind. The result is, FAILED. The federal highway remind me to her, the couple I saw at KL remind me dating her, When I eat at restaurant and saw acouple, dats reminds me to her. Damnn...
Please understand me, just one more chance, I'm going there not to fight, but just to meet U and dat boy. Just wanna explaination from him, just want my right. Yes I did U wrong. I not appreciate (am I?) u, as u said to me, but dats is wrong, dats y I still fight for our relationship. I can't live without U. I tried to accept wat happen between us, but I failed, due to my hardcore LOVE to U. How can U forget just like dat. Last meet U said I must get knowing AFIK, so, I'm going there to learn and knowing him. What's his character, wat he is, wat he want, why he did dis?
I called U not arguing anymore, pls pick up. I really hope U pick up the call.
I'm sorry...I know I'm not the perfect man for U, but give a chance and let me learn from 'my mistake'.
:(
4:33 am
Just come back from Wangsa Maju, KL. Got 'game' tonite. Jst hang around, just a help from my buddies to get 'her' from my mind. The result is, FAILED. The federal highway remind me to her, the couple I saw at KL remind me dating her, When I eat at restaurant and saw acouple, dats reminds me to her. Damnn...
Please understand me, just one more chance, I'm going there not to fight, but just to meet U and dat boy. Just wanna explaination from him, just want my right. Yes I did U wrong. I not appreciate (am I?) u, as u said to me, but dats is wrong, dats y I still fight for our relationship. I can't live without U. I tried to accept wat happen between us, but I failed, due to my hardcore LOVE to U. How can U forget just like dat. Last meet U said I must get knowing AFIK, so, I'm going there to learn and knowing him. What's his character, wat he is, wat he want, why he did dis?
I called U not arguing anymore, pls pick up. I really hope U pick up the call.
I'm sorry...I know I'm not the perfect man for U, but give a chance and let me learn from 'my mistake'.
:(
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Still hoping...
6 Jan 2011
00:00 am
Nothing much, still hoping to have her back. fatin, pls do understand me, dunno wat should I do anymore. Just marry him, then U'll see me stop. Y u can't give just one chance...Plz..
Y u wont pick up my call. I just want to know your news, I never talk about the past. Yesterday U the one want to talk about it. Pls syg...I'm hurt...
:(
00:00 am
Nothing much, still hoping to have her back. fatin, pls do understand me, dunno wat should I do anymore. Just marry him, then U'll see me stop. Y u can't give just one chance...Plz..
Y u wont pick up my call. I just want to know your news, I never talk about the past. Yesterday U the one want to talk about it. Pls syg...I'm hurt...
:(
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Engaged?
5 Jan 2010
23:29
Mentioning engaged, U said, am I ok and stop of everything if U engaged wit him. God dmn it, r u blind or too stupid? U said U knew him well. My cyg, I never imagine ur answer, I've ask u before, for your hand. You refuse wit a reason, afraid line is not clear wit ur abang.
Do u know dat u blow my heart. I never think u can say sumting like that. U break my heart into pieces. Y u dont want to pick up the phone, y not reply my mcj. last time u told me, its coz by afiq (lahanat). He must resposible to all thing he did. If he's not cucuk line, its ok....Now U declare dat U not loving me anymore, we can't be together. Its ok, I wont force U, I just want meet U n seat togehter. Its better if lahanat tu ade.
Now I want my prode back, He did it bangsat way, I pay him the bangsat way. He ask me to do dat. U know I loving U more than anything in this world. Now, wit the power I got, I'll meet 2 of U in Uitm. I want U to know that I will do anything to have back. If i want to hit him, I can, anytime, but I promised to U dat I wont do dat. I ask u to list up all the weaknesses I have, and all the problem in our relationship. He'll pay all the tears. I don't people interfere in our relationship, I dun like people that hypocrite
Sayang, U know, we can stat again, I love U...I just tooo sleepy, too tired...I'll mcj u tomoro. Take care of ur health. 134
23:29
Mentioning engaged, U said, am I ok and stop of everything if U engaged wit him. God dmn it, r u blind or too stupid? U said U knew him well. My cyg, I never imagine ur answer, I've ask u before, for your hand. You refuse wit a reason, afraid line is not clear wit ur abang.
Do u know dat u blow my heart. I never think u can say sumting like that. U break my heart into pieces. Y u dont want to pick up the phone, y not reply my mcj. last time u told me, its coz by afiq (lahanat). He must resposible to all thing he did. If he's not cucuk line, its ok....Now U declare dat U not loving me anymore, we can't be together. Its ok, I wont force U, I just want meet U n seat togehter. Its better if lahanat tu ade.
Now I want my prode back, He did it bangsat way, I pay him the bangsat way. He ask me to do dat. U know I loving U more than anything in this world. Now, wit the power I got, I'll meet 2 of U in Uitm. I want U to know that I will do anything to have back. If i want to hit him, I can, anytime, but I promised to U dat I wont do dat. I ask u to list up all the weaknesses I have, and all the problem in our relationship. He'll pay all the tears. I don't people interfere in our relationship, I dun like people that hypocrite
Sayang, U know, we can stat again, I love U...I just tooo sleepy, too tired...I'll mcj u tomoro. Take care of ur health. 134
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
No answer..
4 Jan 2010
Still have no answer when I called. She keep avoiding me, dunno y...from the lst info I got, just because that motherfucker ask her no to. Damn...I'll come to u my dear, I'll take U back from him. He's not for U, coz u're mine.
U told me before, that sumtimes U cried,after calling me, U run around the field cos tension wit me. U did sumting, if I'm not mistaken, U cut ur self. All of this U did cos U tension wit me, but do U tell me about it, about u cried, about U run the field, about U cut urself. Yes my dear, U didn't, if u told me, I'll go to u on the spot. Its not sweet talker over here. It's me...the one dat love u.
Y u not complained it to me, straightly talk to me. Y u blame me, without give me the opportunity to fix it. Please my dear, dun let me drowned. Let me have ur heart, I know there's still a place for me in your heart. Please, I can't bear this 'malapetaka' sayang.
Just keep in your mind, I'm the way U knew me at our first date, and until now I'm the same person. I'm rarely mcj and called u but we still together for almost 3 years. Coz that time U not studying, U're not influenced by "sumone". Don't let sumting stupid thing like dis happen between us. Jaja nazar broke wit his boy, with statement "I ceraikan die". What the hell is that, r u gud enough? I believe u're not like that. I want u to stop keep in touch wit him, if u not keep in touch wit him, then u're not remembering him, might be then u open back ur heart for me. I'm sorry sayang, I can't let dis thing just end like that. I'll see u this saturday or sunday, just to meet u, my gf.
His word; "Hey. Don't ever let somebody tell you.You can't do something.You got a dream.You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it." . By this word I official announce to Afik, better U read this, step on my dead body, if u want Fatin. I need a table talk wit U, its better if FATIN join together....
Afik...lu main bangsat, gua bg lu jadi bangsat...
Still have no answer when I called. She keep avoiding me, dunno y...from the lst info I got, just because that motherfucker ask her no to. Damn...I'll come to u my dear, I'll take U back from him. He's not for U, coz u're mine.
U told me before, that sumtimes U cried,after calling me, U run around the field cos tension wit me. U did sumting, if I'm not mistaken, U cut ur self. All of this U did cos U tension wit me, but do U tell me about it, about u cried, about U run the field, about U cut urself. Yes my dear, U didn't, if u told me, I'll go to u on the spot. Its not sweet talker over here. It's me...the one dat love u.
Y u not complained it to me, straightly talk to me. Y u blame me, without give me the opportunity to fix it. Please my dear, dun let me drowned. Let me have ur heart, I know there's still a place for me in your heart. Please, I can't bear this 'malapetaka' sayang.
Just keep in your mind, I'm the way U knew me at our first date, and until now I'm the same person. I'm rarely mcj and called u but we still together for almost 3 years. Coz that time U not studying, U're not influenced by "sumone". Don't let sumting stupid thing like dis happen between us. Jaja nazar broke wit his boy, with statement "I ceraikan die". What the hell is that, r u gud enough? I believe u're not like that. I want u to stop keep in touch wit him, if u not keep in touch wit him, then u're not remembering him, might be then u open back ur heart for me. I'm sorry sayang, I can't let dis thing just end like that. I'll see u this saturday or sunday, just to meet u, my gf.
His word; "Hey. Don't ever let somebody tell you.You can't do something.You got a dream.You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it." . By this word I official announce to Afik, better U read this, step on my dead body, if u want Fatin. I need a table talk wit U, its better if FATIN join together....
Afik...lu main bangsat, gua bg lu jadi bangsat...
Monday, January 3, 2011
Dislocate
3rd January 2011
Dislocated finger bone due to my 'new assignment'. Feel good, get the assignment at the right time. Dunno how many times I called to ask her news. Huh...damn!!! She hate me? No, she's not. Hahahha...I'm writing here just to let u know about what I'm doing. Where I go. My daily activity is in another blog.
If u want the address, hit me on ym or email. I miss u damn much. Yes, I am. Just give your news, latest health condition or anything. I worried about u, pls do understand me. I try to keep myself bz, but I failed to do so. Hmm..dunno wat to write, just dont get close with him, I know wat u do overthere. Dont judge me by 2 years of our relationship. U never know my darkside, I'm changing just because of u. Now I'm going back to my old days, not because of u (just minor), but because dat boy. If he's not there, if he's truly want to be ur best friend, if he's honest, this thing wouldn't happen. I know u still love me, still wait for my call. Tts ok if u wont pick up but that bastard also wont pick up. If I called him again, and he's not picking up, I'll break his nose, in ur classroom. So ask him to pick up my call, coz I want to tell him, not to disturb u anymore!!!!
Dislocated finger bone due to my 'new assignment'. Feel good, get the assignment at the right time. Dunno how many times I called to ask her news. Huh...damn!!! She hate me? No, she's not. Hahahha...I'm writing here just to let u know about what I'm doing. Where I go. My daily activity is in another blog.
If u want the address, hit me on ym or email. I miss u damn much. Yes, I am. Just give your news, latest health condition or anything. I worried about u, pls do understand me. I try to keep myself bz, but I failed to do so. Hmm..dunno wat to write, just dont get close with him, I know wat u do overthere. Dont judge me by 2 years of our relationship. U never know my darkside, I'm changing just because of u. Now I'm going back to my old days, not because of u (just minor), but because dat boy. If he's not there, if he's truly want to be ur best friend, if he's honest, this thing wouldn't happen. I know u still love me, still wait for my call. Tts ok if u wont pick up but that bastard also wont pick up. If I called him again, and he's not picking up, I'll break his nose, in ur classroom. So ask him to pick up my call, coz I want to tell him, not to disturb u anymore!!!!
Saturday, January 1, 2011
The new birth.
2nd January 2011
"Hepi besday" received at 1.30 am. Dunno whether she send it to the wrong number or to me, cos there's no name at the end of the statement. That fucker also have the same birth date wit me. I replied it, and there's no reply, dats y I guess she send the wrong mcj to the wrong guy. Celebrating it alone, watching "Damping Malam", but she's always in my mind, I just keep looking to the seat we book at our last muvi.
Feel damn good receiving dat "hepi besday", suddenly her smile and everything good fucking nice memories flashing back in my modulaoblongata. Stopping by at the highway, the tears come out, y it end like dis. Damn fuck. Y I keep thinking about her, y I keep take care about her, y I keep calling her. Y I crying for this relationship. WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!. Maybe u can forget all our memories, I said MAYBE!!!
But for me, its damn fucking hard!!! Wherever I go, I always see u. Cinema, Mall, restaurant and bla..bla...How can I forget u.!!!..
But u choose dis way, and say sorry. Now at 28 yr old, I've decided to be sumone bad, cos I know u hate bad guy. I'm sorry if I neglecting u, but for real...I'm not, sayang. U can fix it, but u refuse to do so. Its ok then, coz I'll work out sumting, U're priceless to me, I can't hate U. Dats for real. I dunno the real thing happen between U and Nazri, but from wat I know, I'm get U by proper way, not "RAMPAS". The only thing I can imagine is dat U want a life of a student. Normal student couple, U can go anywhere together, no commitment to work, no problem, can hv a study group together, lunch together, dinner together, everything that U that I FAILED to give to U!!!!
Last time U mcj me that "cian a.z". Why cian to him, then no explaination. Then MAYBE U will blame in the future. I've tried hanging out and date other girl, but what happen? I told her about U, the way U are, ur character and everything. Damn..how U can say dat I'll forget U in short time. Fuck it....
Still feel bad with wat happened...
"Hepi besday" received at 1.30 am. Dunno whether she send it to the wrong number or to me, cos there's no name at the end of the statement. That fucker also have the same birth date wit me. I replied it, and there's no reply, dats y I guess she send the wrong mcj to the wrong guy. Celebrating it alone, watching "Damping Malam", but she's always in my mind, I just keep looking to the seat we book at our last muvi.
Feel damn good receiving dat "hepi besday", suddenly her smile and everything good fucking nice memories flashing back in my modulaoblongata. Stopping by at the highway, the tears come out, y it end like dis. Damn fuck. Y I keep thinking about her, y I keep take care about her, y I keep calling her. Y I crying for this relationship. WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!. Maybe u can forget all our memories, I said MAYBE!!!
But for me, its damn fucking hard!!! Wherever I go, I always see u. Cinema, Mall, restaurant and bla..bla...How can I forget u.!!!..
But u choose dis way, and say sorry. Now at 28 yr old, I've decided to be sumone bad, cos I know u hate bad guy. I'm sorry if I neglecting u, but for real...I'm not, sayang. U can fix it, but u refuse to do so. Its ok then, coz I'll work out sumting, U're priceless to me, I can't hate U. Dats for real. I dunno the real thing happen between U and Nazri, but from wat I know, I'm get U by proper way, not "RAMPAS". The only thing I can imagine is dat U want a life of a student. Normal student couple, U can go anywhere together, no commitment to work, no problem, can hv a study group together, lunch together, dinner together, everything that U that I FAILED to give to U!!!!
Last time U mcj me that "cian a.z". Why cian to him, then no explaination. Then MAYBE U will blame in the future. I've tried hanging out and date other girl, but what happen? I told her about U, the way U are, ur character and everything. Damn..how U can say dat I'll forget U in short time. Fuck it....
Still feel bad with wat happened...
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